we have a frozen pipe! fuck winter!

>>4704
C-can...

Can I have your snow? Last time we got snow it was four inches, and lasted two days. It's never cold enough for snow here.

2 feet of snow! FUCK YES! No school!

I've been told there's a slight chance I might not get the appartment after all - There's a second candidate, apparently.

Jesus, this rollercoaster of emotions is getting on my nerves way too much. Onto another night of nailbiting and playing vidya to distract myself!

So oh my goodness, my girl and I are back together. God this feels so good, especially since it was kinda like we never broke up in the first place. I guess all we needed was a bit of space before we realized WHY THE FUCK DID WE BREAK UP, WE'RE IDIOTS DERP.
Taking it niiiice and slow though, don't wanna ruin anything before it starts, ya know? I especially don't wanna make her feel uncomfortable in regards to the sexy times. Granted she's the hottest thing on the planet and I'd love to just take her right now unf, but until she feels comfy, I can totally keep myself in check. Just want you to be happy, babe. ~

On a second note, I plan to keep this news to myself. Because seriously, my aunt and uncle can go fuck themselves and I'm tired of playing this game of trying to please them. If she makes me happy, then goddamit, I'm sticking with it whether they like it or not. Because I KNOW they don't like us together. Or uh... I know my uncle doesn't really like it.

God I wanna move out of this house like, right now.

Also, I fucking hate people who ship Layton and Luke. It's digusting and you should feel disgusting.

>>4714
We have, like, 5 feet of snow left over from all the snowstorms.
YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL.

>>4704
Can I have some too? We hardly got any snow up here in the mountains this year.

Bad: I got five wisdom teeth ripped out on Monday. Joy. I can't eat solids and talking hurts. Bleh. Can't sleep for the pain and wake up choking on blood and just eugh.
Good: because I'm at home I'm spending time with my mom and it's really cool. We're watching movies together and it's great. Read the story I'm working on to my wife and she liked it and I wanted to read our book to her but she had to go do laundry. Godamn long-distance relationship. Also there's piles of snow outside and I love snow.

Fuck, it so does not feel like a Wednesday.

On the brighter side of things, I think I'll be able to start with the duck tape outfits for Scoutpapa's prom.

I've been offered one of the jobs that I went for interviews for yesterday.
AWESOME.jpeg, But still holding out for this one which might potentially be better if I get it.
C'monnnn

>>4704
SEND ME YOUR SNOW
No really, we've had almost an entire week of heatwave. One day was already too much!

>>4730
Here! Take it! All three feet of it!

I just found out that both of my Wii remotes won't work because of the winter storm we had in late December as well as one of my nunchucks. My room is under the garage and my dresser got ruined along with a few other objects because of the rain leaking through the ceiling and wall due to the wind that came with it. That's going to set me back at least $60...

>>4718

The only solution is to kill the other candidate.

So I emailed my ex again after having a nice little conversation with him but this time I responded to his suggestion that I meet him in Brighton for a "catch up" I told him that I really didn't want to and HERE'S WHY, YOU CONTROLLING, PARANOID HYPOCRITE.

Spent three paragraphs explaining in painful detail what a shit he was to me and why I broke up with him. Last time I did that he flipped out and tried to use the aforementioned cat as a bargaining chip to control me. Considering he's now said he has "no right" to keep the cat (it's dead and in an urn by the way, just to clear up any confusion), I'm genuinely interested in what his response is going to be.

I fully expect him to withold the cat and once again attempt to shift all the blame for his own shortcomings onto me, just like he did last time.

>>4731
CAN I HAVE SOME TOO NYX?

So, my sister and I are close. Like, really close. As in, I hang out with her than 90% of my other non-related friends.
All of a sudden, this conversation pops up:
"Ohai so moving to Minnesota."
adkfglypkxcjjt what
Within the next six months, she's probably gonna be out of here. What I SHOULD do is, you know, say something. But I don't want her to have the "making people depressed by moving thing, feelsbadman" thing hanging around.

Fuck what do I do

>>4734

Ex confirmed for same faggotry as ever. Still won't accept he did anything wrong, still trying to shift as much blame as possible onto me.

Now fishing to see if he'll still return my things, and my cat, willingly.

>>4731
>>4736
Please, send some to Cali! I'd not only love to see the sheer chaos that would ensue with only a few inches (let alone over a foot), but it would also be nice to kill this heat we're having over here.

Feelings: <3. Everything in my life is so <3 right now.

>>4739
Show up at his place, kick him in the babymaker, grab your stuff and run.

School is going surprisingly well. Also, hosting a Superbowl party. Need to clean! Will be making Meat Dip (heart attack on a Frito) and something dessert-y. Considering cannoli. They're totally a traditional football food, right?

Also been putting 15 minutes on the rowing machine every morning. Feels good.

>>4719
Oh yay! So glad to hear that you two are back together again!

Feelings! I'm freaking out a little!
It just hit me that I have to learn how to function in proper society again. I have to fix my sleeping schedule, my eating habits, my sarcasm, and unlearn being a dick. My social anxieties are driving me up the wall and it's really unnerving. Also, I think I may be developing a small crush on one of the dudes in my Skype group. I am so not ready for any of this.

I'm so happy right now. I some times think I'm not a good artist, the self deprecation tends to actually serve me in that it makes me improve. But right now, getting $40 in 4 days from 5 different people who were strangers to draw things for them makes me happy. I'm glad others see something of value in what I'm doing. It's pretty fucking fulfilling.

Oh, cool my first hat drop after over 1400 hours of gamepla-
BASEBALL BILL'S SPORT SHINE
FUCK. THE. WORLD.

What's this? You're letting me babysit your sewing machine?
Oh man oh man oh man oh man best month ever.
Also going through emotions as I rush to get a portfolio done, apply to college and find my highschool transcript. FUN.

Guess who didn't get the appartment.

Guess whose computer decided to say "Whoops, power supply goes poof, silly me".

... Sometimes life even makes a goddamn optimist like ME depressed. Well fuck the world. I will have to live with my brother some more time, avaible appartments are really rare in the city at the moment ... Looks like I will be sitting here until summer. My job training starts in March. I will have to go by train every day. Trains make me REALLY uncomfortable.

FUCK. THE. WORLD.

Tuesdays and Thursday are school days for me. I get up, trudge to campus and hell yes! No history today!
Now all I have to put up with is a health test at 10 and I'm totally done for the day!
But pshh, it's health, a test on nutrition no less. It'll be a no brainer.

HEEEELL YEAAAAHH.

It's Thursday, which means I only have one class that's just over an hour on a subject I love (ochem), Madoka airs later tonight, and I can laze around in the evening and play games with friends.

So why am I depressed?

So I've been sick to the point of fainting during the last three days. Yet I still had to work on some stuff and because of that almost fainting incident on Tuesday I've missed one last exam on Wednesday. Well, actually, I went to uni, I just was so fucking sick and tired that I've missed the exam time by 10 minutes. And the lecturer already left. I just hope that she's going to be there tomorrow so I just can show her everything and get the grade. FML

Update on my computer:

Both the mainboard and the power supply seem to be fucked. Computer is at the repairman's now. If you ask me, everything can be broken, I don't give a fuck ... Except for the HDDs. I have a backup but it's incomplete. I can't think about all the data I'd lose without feeling like crying.

Throw the rest in the garbage, but please, give me my precious files! Lets pray together that all those wonderful folders full of stuff aren't lost, chan. Please.

I am so angry this morning. Not only is one cat being a giant shithead, knocking things over and trying to destroy my clothing, he woke me up several times last night. And then I couldn't fall back asleep because this god damn house is plagued with fleas! We move in, house is infested for no fucking reason, get it taken care of. We get kittens, suddenly fleas everywhere! And they come back every fucking month! I am hyper-allergic to the little bastards so LOL SLEEP WHAT'S THAT? The cats are on frontline, we had the Orkin spray every other month but they still come back. We don't even have carpet anymore! Haven't since July! How do I eradicate these little fuckers from my residence, because we've tried fucking everything already!

TL;DR I'm exhausted, I itch, I'm angry and I have a chem lab with dangerous chemicals that requires high amounts of precision today. FUCK.

>>4761
Have you had the house bombed yet? Just spraying might not be enough to get rid of them entirely. We had a flea infestation in my parents' house years ago and we had it bombed while we (and the pets) camped out at my Grandmother's for a few days. Never had a problem after that.

>>4758
Are you me? Seriously, my lappy is fucked and while I mourn it because I'm going back to using a Dell desktop my parents bought in 1996 and that really really sucks, my biggest loss would be all my writing and logged roelplays and photos that are on the laptop's hard drive.
My only other concern is that I can't check my email on this godamn dinosaur and I can't check my work schedule so I might have to quit my job. I was planning on quitting anyways, but I kind of wanted to secure another job first. Bleh.

I feel so constructive lately. \o/ I've been drawing a lot more than usual, and I went out yesterday and bought a shitton of fleece and spent the day making Homestuck grub plushies. Granted, my plushie-making skills are for shit - but hey, they're cute, and they're for me, so not a fuck has been given.

Tomorrow is DISNEYLAND FUCK YEAH, ALL MY EXCITE. My pass is getting ready to expire (after I've only been TWICE) so it'll be good to get one last go-round in. I'm really excited to see how Disney's gluten free food thinger works out, too.

Thinking I'm gonna ask that girl on a date either today or Saturday. 9_9 Hogod. She told me the other day that she feels really comfortable around me and that she thinks I'm really sweet and funny. To which I sort of flailed around in my chair and promptly fell out of it. But either way, I think I need someone sternly command me to ask her out, lmao. I always get my best friend to yell at me, 'cause that way if I chicken out, I feel like I disappointed someone. FORCING MYSELF INTO NOT BEING A NERVOUS DICK, WOO. (Whatever man, it works.)

But for now. BACK TO MORE PLUSHIES.

>>4764
GO MAKE HER A FUCKING HEART AND GIVE IT TO HER SAYING "Please go out with me c:" AND INCLUDE PROMISE OF CAKES. EVERYONE LOVES CAKES.


unrelated, going to the GP has no fucking affect atm, I need to be referred to someone who can help. Anyone know what these symptoms can mean: sitting down on the computer being a lazy piece of shit means I'm fine as long as I take my paracetamol, when I go outside I feel fine and then feel like I'm going to be sick, I get headaches and dizzy and my blood pressure is fine and I don't have a cold or a flu.

when I feel like that I feel as if "why bother moving let's just fall over in the middle of the street it'll be okay someone'll drag me somewhere safe probably"

maya 2010, have I not given you the proper offerings for the last few days?
please stop crashing and making me lose most of the work I just did. you're going to make me cry.
Then you are going to make me mad and i will take that anger out on the innocent school computer.

I finally decided: I'm buying a treadmill. Since I'm going to pay it from the money I've made on commissions, I know that I'm going to use it. I'm already using two other exercise machines in the house, but so far it's been hard for me to lose the annoying little fat from the lower region. So I'm doing it for myself: I want to get healthy before the diploma, I want to look good during Spring and other seasons. I want to feel good about myself, I want to get rid of those 10 kgs that returned this winter. Bring it on, my body is ready!

There's a guy that goes to the same college as me, he's kinda really chubby and looks thirty, despite being eighteen and he's always kissing me. He's a nice guy and all but for fuck sake man you have a girlfriend (apparently).

Captcha: Wizadr, inb4 yer a wizard.

>>4762
We may have to, but it's extremely difficult to convince the boyfriend that the fleas are a serious problem because he doesn't react to them at all. Obviously, I just need to scratch so much at night it keeps him awake too. Evil plan: commence.

>>4763
You can usually retrieve the hard drive, unless it's virus-fucked. I mean, if it's a graphics issue, or whatever. For example, my lovely Asus that's lasted me a couple of years of dropping it off those bloody side-desk things that swing up from beside chairs at Uni - anyway, my laptop has some kinda connection issue between the screen and the everything-else. Unless I tilt it at the exact correct angle, it looks like trying to watch a dodgy VHS, with the scrolling picture. Oh, and bright purple vertical lines. Frigging laptop.

Anyway my point is when I finally bite the bullet and get a new computer, I intend to rip the HDD out of my lappy, whack it in a case and use it as an external. Damned if I'm losing my romance with Alistair the Grey Warden of sexiness.

He gave me a rose!

>>4758
It can be saved. My old Aspire got it's motherboard fried and I had the data on the hard drive retried and saved on an external. I also learned never to get an Acer notebook because this is was the third that replaced the first because the camera didn't work in the first one and the USB drives stopped working on the second.

Does anyone else feel like an unworthy, total retard around their academic advisors, despite them being very nice, cool people? I just can't help it around my advisor because he invented it, and then he perfected it so that no living man could best him in the ring of honor.

The new guy that moved into the apartment under me is the rudest motherfucker I've ever had to deal with and my apartment reeks of weed now. I moved out of my brother's place due to his constant weed smoking, this shit ain't cool.

I don't have a problem with the drug itself, it's just that the smell and smoke from it gives me hay fever. I can't stop sneezing, my eyes won't stop watering and itching, sore throat, bawwww, etc.

I don't want to be an asshole, but if this dude smokes weed all day and night for one more week, I am calling the damn landlord. I don't want to be miserable in my own place.

The repairman just called. I will have to replace the motherboard and the power supply, obviously, but all other parts seem to be fine. ESPECIALLY MY HDDS. Thank goodness! Computer well be ready tomorrow, he says.

Sadly this means that I won't be able to make it to my RP group. My mom was already pissed when I stayed up at her PC for so long yesterday. Damnit, I want to RP so bad. Oh well, at least my stuff is okay.

Rant ahead.

FUCK SAKE, STOP HAVING A GO AT MY CHARACTER, JUST 'CAUSE YOU'RE JEALOUS HE'S A HIGHER RANK THAN YOU YADDA YADDA YADDA GO WITH THE FUCKING PLOT IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU. FUCKING PACIFISTIC (Did I spell that right?) CHARACTER WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING IN A TF2 ROLEPLAY, ISN'T THE CANON MEDIC POSSIBLY A FLYING NUTJOB? WHY IS YOURS A DOORMAT. DON'T TRY AND MAKE MINE A DOORMAT TOO.


Sorry about that. Had to get that out.

Its someone's birthday today. Happy Birthday, you~

I hate my whole family with a passion.
My brother's an abusive dick. My mother still acts/thinks I'm 9 years old. My dad is just like "WHATEVER LOL" and does nothing.
Sometimes, I just want to... murder them or something. At least run away.
And I could totally get away with it (murder AND running away, but I'm not really going to murder them). I'm the only female Cadet, I know how to start a fire and shit and set up a shelter.
Buuuutttt I'm too pussy to actually do anything, and just take it like a bitch.

Welp, I feel better.

I fail at modeling heads in Maya. I absolutely have to use Maya for a class I'm in, because it's the rules, so I handed the character I was working on to another team member. Other team member is partially done with the head a week later, but his grandpa died, so he's been absent, and so he hands the character's head to another team member. Only problem is the previous person to work on the character was using the plane method where you keep making planes until you eventually form the head, which is a completely stupid way to make heads! You end up with too many polygons and too many vertices, so you can't easily connect it to the body. During the class conference call, the person to get the character next agrees, so I thought he was going to make a fresh head using the cube method, where you just make a cube and add edge loops to it. Later this week, I find out that he went against his agreement and tried to finish off the other guy's head. He added all these unnecessary edge loops to MY body that I made for the character to try to connect it, and it's not even the updated version. Even worse, the faces he added to the second guy's head turn invisible whenever I try moving the head around, even in render. Now, the head has to be completely scrapped, I'm stressing the fuck out because we're going to be severely delayed, and I still fucking suck at modeling heads in Maya, so I can't help. If only I was able to use 3D Max to make the head. I'm so much better at modeling in 3D Max, and I know how to make Max geometry completely compatible with Maya, even when rigging. Why can't I just use Max to make the head, Professor? WHY?!!!

I'll be glad when this is over. It doesn't help that I'm the producer for this week, either.

Sup. Does anyone remember me? It's been like 2 years. How's things?

>>4809
Woo yay, happy birthday to that lucky person! I hope they are not melting in the heat and not having a failtastic time!
>>4824
Oh you know. Dicks and all that. Welcome back Author!

>>4824
I still have your "Author trolls /v/ with Heavy/Medic porn" fic saved.

It is really fucking cold in this basement. I love the snow, but the whole thing where the cold is waking my insomnia up again after three years ain't so cool.
I'mma build a snow fort tomorrow to remind myself why Michigan winters are awesome.

Bluh.
That's really the only word I can describe with how I'm feeling
Why am I suddenly feeling so upset?
Weight in my chest, please go away you are ruining my mood and making me extremely clingy with my friends.
You are also making me feel like I'm bothering them by being gloomy which in turn makes me want to talk to them even more.
BLUH

IT'S OFFICIALLY THE BEST FUCKING DAY.

Spent the entire day with my bros at Disneyland. Did awesome bro stuff. Killed my feet but it was WORTH IT. The gluten free pizza at Pizza Port is awesome. The rides are awesome. The weather was awesome. It wasn't fucking crowded. Best. Day.

Oh, and you know what else? Know what else?

I did it. I asked her on a date.

She said yes.

IT'S THE BEST FUCKING DAY

I have been through three boxes of paracetamol in the last week D:!

>>4833
Congrats!

>ex boyfriend still chatting to me via email while I tell him how fantastic everything's been for me since I left him

>"You still haven't told me where you live."

>"I know I haven't told you where I live."

>>4830
Haha, no, it wasn't my birthday. Mine's not til July.

Made homemade rolls this afternoon - the first time I've made any bread product from scratch, aside from banana bread - and the results are pretty damn tasty. Feeling ridiculously happy with my cooking abilities right now.

It's fascinating how my mother has been extremely sick for the past week, and my sister and I have been running around trying to get everything done for her in the house because she can't get up from the couch and has a major fever. After days she finally decided to get up and take a shower, and the only thing she does is complain about the little things we didn't do/couldn't get done, and how we don't care a shit about her when she's sick. Not even the smallest thank you. And when her boyfriend stops by she clings to him like mad and thanks him when he just makesa simple cup of coffee for her and is so great and amazing.

Outside of that I always get pulled into the fights she has with grandma, and always get blamed for 'how I trick her into something grandma can complain about again'.

my mother is always threatening to kick me out of the house and let me live with dad, who lives like, two streets away. I don't mind this at all and say I want to go live with dad, and then she goes batshit insane at me and how I can't go live with dad because I wouldn't do a thing and fail een more at school and etc.

Excuse me while I sigh and sometimes like school more than anything so I don't have to hear her complaints about fucking everything.

>>4844

Go live with your dad. What's stopping you?

Oh man there is a big fight on UFC tonight. Got that shit set to record. Gonna sit on my ass tomorrow and watch it with a tub of ice cream. Best ever.

>>4844
Are you me?
My mother's like that, too.

Man I was totally content and happy and shit and then I see Facebook pics of my ex and his new girlfriend going out on the town and having a good time and shit.

He never took me out on the town and always complained whenever I suggested it because it costs money to go out and he never had money and I should just be content to stay home with him and watch movies.

Now I'm playing the blame game and wondering if I was a terrible girlfriend or maybe I didn't speak up enough and that's why I'm sitting here all lonely in this apartment and lost touch with everyone or if he was just jealous or manipulative or something. It just really sucks how he moved on so fast, and with our friend's sister no less.

Hopefully at least hanging out with Betsy at her Super Bowl party will make me feel a bit better.

>>4840
Hmm...well then happy birthday to whoever it was.

>>4852
>>4852
There will be cannoli, unspecified grilled meat, and meat dip (which is a meat, velveeta and cream cheese concoction served on fritos). Feeling better is a must. Also you get to meet my kitties! Kitties make everything better.

On that note, I cleaned most of the day. My floor is now a little slick from the stuff I used on it. Whee. Kitchen in the morning and then my house will be Presentable.

Also also, there's this particular person who's been setting off my rage-meter lately, and we had a particularly rage-filled conversation tonight, but it was totally defused by my reg server (serious but lighthearted) joining me in making towers and sniper humping and spy crabbing. I love those guys.

>>4847
Thing is I'd leave my sister behind, and Mom says she'd start a law suit and shit against me if I'd go, while I'm legally allowed to. I don't have money for such things though.

>>4858
Are you me? My mom almost never lets me leave the house unless she's threatening to kick me out. I'm legally allowed to do everything other than drink, and she tells me I shouldn't be talking to strangers online (strangers = anyone she doesn't know, even if I know them irl or we've met/talked irl eventually) or have a Facebook. I don't even know why she's like this. I can't think of any time I've been in a threatening situation or legal trouble.

So I asked the guy I like in my Skype group if he would be my "honorable waifu-san." It's a running joke in my group so I was kinda expecting him to say no or make some witty comment about it. Needless to say I panicked and freaked out a bit when he said yes. Not only that, but he keeps bringing it up. "Of course she prefers me. I'm her waifu-san."
Yeah, I meant it as a joke, but I really do like him and now I'm wondering if he really likes me or something. I want to ask him to be my Valentine or some cheesy shit like that, but I'm worried he might think I'm joking and will jokingly say yes as a joke because we're both jokingly joking. Also, my close friend has a small crush on him as well and I don't want to ruin their chance at him. I'm not sure what to do at this point, I just know this will end badly.

uh... hey, boss?

would you mind like, i dont know, answering my calls and messages? because it would be really fucking handy to know if i'm going back to work tommorow or not. preferably not the latter becasue as much fun as not working for a month has been i am really worried about NOT HAVING ANY FUCKING MONEY LEFT if i dont get back to work soon

>dad gets tickets for hockey game today
>Scoutpapa wants to spend day together
>"You'd ditch plans we made together for a hockey game?"

First off, you didn't ask me until after my dad did. Second, I might've been able to go if you'd told me you could give me a ride, since I don't have a lisence. Third, I never get to see my dad anymore, between college and his work schedule, so god forbid I spend time with my goddamn father on a day where I didn't have anything planned. Don't think that just because you're my boyfriend you have the perk of seeing me whenever you fucking please. It's immature and unrealistic. And now because of you being a dick about me chillin' with my dad, not only will I miss not hanging out with you, I'll feel doubly guilty about the game because a) you love me, and b) your dad is dead so it's not like you could chill with yours. I already took it out on a highschooler I know on facebook today, don't fucking start with me.

tl;dr boyfriend being immature and guilt-tripping to the point where I'm honestly idgaf today.

>hi there pa
>awkward talk
>you know that woman you hate but never told me you hate? She's moving in this summer
Allow me to say this moment to say I DONOT WANT THIS DAMN WOMAN AND HER CHILD AROUND. I kind of want her to have never met my Pa.
They're practically sewing themselves together right now as it is, they're not even dating and she's going to be moving in! My Pa's dating record is absolute Shit, this can only end badly. He does all the jokes he does when trying to hook a lady and he ahs that attitude that comes with trying to attract a femle. This just fucking ruined my morning.

>>4858

On what grounds? I can't see any lawsuit she made being successful, pretty sure it'd just fall flat on its face - that's if she didn't get laughed out of court for suggesting it.

Bitch is just trying to scare you. Call her bluff, and make it doubly shitty for her by convincing your sister to come with you. Then we'll see who's boss.

So freaking tired, but today was good day. My team won the game, there was much delicious food, Stereo was a superstar at rolling cannoli dough, and my kitchen is clean once again. Also, nick-of-time train-catching oh yes.

I am going to go sleep for ten hours now, I hope/think. Yes.

My roommate got period blood all over the floor and didn't wipe it up.

I can't wait until I move out.

on the bus back home from Marty's, and hooray a pile of work is waiting for me at school, in front of which the bus happens to drop off. :| At least I had a fun weekend!

Don't fucking tell me about how bored you are and beg me to Skype with you. Unlike you, I have a fucking life and a lot of shit to do.

Jesus I can't remember the last time I was bored.

>>4908

>Shoulder's in more pain than ever
>Don't know when college stops accepting applications
>best friend is stuck on the other side of the planet for another month because no flights

I'm going through a huge range of emotions right now. It seems everyone but me is getting offered full time work, I can't keep my shoulder form burning, and no one in this house seems to care that I'm hurt and need assistance to do chores or hold up a pencil.

You know what? I really fucking dislike you. You're nothing but a pimple on the role play community's ass and I seriously can't fathom why anyone likes you. I don't give a fuck if you're the best fucking photoshopper in the community and make rad graphics, it doesn't entitle you to being a stuck up bitch. You're so fucking arrogant, I mean seriously, get over yourself. The worst part is? You make yourself off to be some kind of fucking Sengoku Basara expert, and yet your characters are as dull as dish water. You can know every detail about these guys but unless you can fucking apply that, you're just as bad as the other crap role players floating around. The same can be said for Hetalia and every other goddamn fandom you inhabit. Jesus Christ. And I know you're judging other people who play these characters behind their back, and it's like, again, seriously, you can't role play them for shit yourself. Did I mention that I hate your fucking inactivity? You make all these plans with my friends and then they complain to me a week later saying you never bothered to follow up with these role play plans. You get people's hopes up, then disappear for a month then come back and don't even apologize. TEE HEE WHOOPS GUESS I GOT BUSY. Go fuck a cactus you ass hole. Oh and don't even get me started on how self-involved you are. Unless we're involved in your little circle of friends, you hardly pay any other role players any mind. Not that we're missing anything, but regardless it's the principle of the matter.

Fuck you. /end rant

I hope this apparent Labryinthitus clears up quickly.

>talk about my day
>no one responds (and thus, seemingly don't give a shit)
>talk about their day
>can't stop chatty Cathy

My parents are screaming at each other like four year olds.

Over a light bulb.

My lungs hate me. Feeling is mutual.

Alright, it's time to get motivated.

My pre-planned mission for this weekend is to draw replacements for all the pokes from B&W that I hated (approx 80% of total new pokes). The reason for this is that I haven't properly drawn anything in months, and that needs to stop.

Let's do this.

whoops turns out i'm not over my ex and suddenly feelings of worthlessness and overwhelming anxiety overcome me and make me neglect everything again. i've worked hard the last two weeks to be on top of things and be more social and outgoing and see friends and do work but it's just not working. and to top it all off, i think i have a sexual dysfunction that has rendered me afraid of penetration of any type, so it wouldn't matter if i get laid soon because i would get performance anxiety and be too afraid to do anything because according my other ex, i'm afraid of penis.

fuck.

>>4923
Labyrinth as in David Bowie? Because seriously, it's incurable.

You know what? Any and all trouble with Scoutpapa is cleared, schedule isn't fucking me over, college is awesome right now (whoo, understanding my theory stuff on the first try for once!), and the design I submitted to the director for Into the Woods for my own outfit (for when I'm poor) got approved so I get to sew myself a new renfaire getup.

Dudebro, life is pretty good. Let's keep this up.

Went to Arcade Infinity today, and holy shit guys, they finally had Pop'n Music 18: Sengoku Retsuden.

Best. Pop'n Music game. EVER.

My only complaint is the majority of my favorite songs were just too easy on normal, and much too hard on hyper. So I sort of had to cope with the level for the sake of playing my favorite tunes. Which in the end was pretty worth the time.

Also Masamune has proved himself to be the best Retsuden character, as I always believed him to be. I shall be returning very soon.

Fuck this day, oh my god.

So after listening to my parents scream at each other over a light bulb for THREE AND A HALF FUCKING HOURS, they come out and tell me that they're actually letting me drive my date to the Valentine's formal on Saturday. So I'm like, fuck yes, okay. And then they start flipping their shit over her spending the night. Which, alright, you don't want my date spending the night, fairly reasonable - UNLESS you are the parents who let your 17 year old daughter's girlfriend spend the night on several occasions without supervision a couple years ago. What the fuck, sudden freak out? But alright, my dad is relaxing into the idea (he said she can sleep on the couch), so I'll convince them. Whatever.

So at 4:15, they send me to the grocery store. Fine, whatever. I hate the fucking grocery store because it gives me horrible anxiety, but it's right next door to the thrift store I need to go to, so I'll deal. My mom tells me she needs everything on the list by 5. It's like five things on the list, so no big deal.

So I get to the store, and it's an absolute MADHOUSE. It takes me an hour to get the stuff on the list, so I don't get a chance to go to the thrift store. Augh, okay, whatever. I get home, put everything away, and realize - I forgot the coleslaw.

So my mom has a fit. "That was the most important thing! How could you forget! You had a list!" After I'd already apologized four times. So I fucking go back to the store, use a credit card for an 88 cent bag of coleslaw, and go the fuck home.

So my mom asks me to make the coleslaw. I'm already pissed as fuck so I'm like, alright, cooking calms me down. So I'm holding the bag of coleslaw. She goes into the fridge, presumably for mayonnaise... and comes out HOLDING A BAG OF FUCKING COLESLAW. So I make that bag, assuming she just wanted a double batch - no. She looks at the batch I made with the bag we already had and goes, "Oh man, that's plenty, almost too much!"

So I just. Put the new, unopened bag of coleslaw in the fucking fridge. And went to my room. And chugged a goddamn soda which I promised myself I'd stop drinking.

Uuuuuugh.

On the bright side, my ex came out to me as a transguy today. His mom is really really supportive and he's getting to a special clinic ASAP to get hormone treatment and such. I'm irrationally happy for him, 'cause he really deserves to be happy.

Good job TAFE! Not only have you fucked up my enrolment but you conveniently left things out of my previous classes that I needed to get my diploma, BAS qualifications AND tax agent qualifications all at once! And I'm not even getting into the massive schedueling and textbook fail that will likely go on for several weeks! Is it too much to ask that the course I signed up for to actually qualify me in the things it was suppossed to? What the hell am I supossed to do with a diploma if I can't even do the fucking BAS?
I still adore the subjects but get your shit together and organise yourselves and stop fucking me around!

So I feel really bad for having a pretty big crush on this guy mostly because my close friend also has a pretty big crush on him. He deserves him more, Lord knows it, and he probably likes him more. I should just back off and let him try for him. Still, part of me really wants to try to get closer to him and form a tighter friendship but I feel as though I'm betraying my close friend by doing this.
Also, this crush is just not good for me because then I turn into a total stalker and creep on him whenever I get the chance. Pic is me whenever he's online.

Guys, I am having a horrible dilemma. Please advise. D:

So it turns out the copy of Nintendogs I bought from eBay is a fake. The packaging is normal for a US-version DS game, the cart's label has a -USA serial code on it. The game itself, however, is the UK version. Since the game was factory sealed, I doubt that this is a mistake.

So I told eBay about this and now I'm being told I need to return the item for a full refund.

Unfortunately however I have been playing the fucking game and have now become attached to my pretend animals. ._.

What do, TF2chan? ;__;

>>4961
How many hours have you sunk into it at this point? If it's anything like Pokemon, I'd return it if you haven't racked up too many hours.

Just got news that my trip to Comicon might still happen. Jay, the comic store owner, has a back up plan that might involve a bus and 11 days of Vagas AND Comicon.

I'm excited.

>>4938
ear inflammation

>>4972
Well that's a million times less awesome. Hope it clears up.

So for two years my brother's been extremely depressed. He thinks he's ruined his life because he thinks that his insistence on studying late into the night during his teenage years has kept him from being able to grow as tall as he could have been, even though this is complete bullshit and he's the tallest person in my entire family in generations. He's actively blown off anybody who wants to be friends or girlfriends with him by pretending to be indifferent to them and now it's gotten worse to the point that the last time I've talked to him, he told me about how he spends all day in bed so he can fantasize about dying alone and wishing for someone to kill him before he gets the chance to become an old man. I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do to keep him from killing himself.

Every time I try to talk him out of it he's like "I'm disgusted with myself and it's what I think of myself that matters, not others, so what if they like me?" I don't trust psychiatrists because pretty much all of them are drug-prescribing quacks and the last thing I want is for him to become dependent on meds when the only real way to fix him is to fix his mental issues. And therapists are not going to help because he's already overheard us trying to get outside help so he's said he's not going to go along with anything we try. Besides, from personal experience I've found that therapists are fucking useless and don't work anyway. People have told me to send him to a shrink anyway but what's the point if pills aren't a real solution?

I'm so glad next week is looking to be better. I doubt my sanity can take much more of this weeks nonsense!

FUCK YES FLAGS AND BANNERS
HOW I MISSED THEE.

Other than the US flag being especially big for some reason (Solly, stop that!) everything is working fine over here. Hooray!

I'll probably regret posting this in the morning but whatever.
Watching something I've said get twisted into something else entirely a week after I said it...and then turn into some sort of fucked up meme is getting rather old. Along with being caricatured as some kind of twisted tyrant bent on destroying all that is good and right. And I'm not even getting into how people seem to now think I do nothing because I can't always get on when most people are on nowadays thanks to classes. Normally I can laugh off that kind of thing. I don't normally care much for what others think of me, but combined with my real life stuff it's just wearing me down a bit I suppose.
"Shit admin" that I am, I'm still working on this place. Still checking in everyday, even if most people are sleeping when I do. Making sure things get done, though sometimes things do fall through the cracks. This place is big enough for it. I really do want this place to be as nice, just as much as anyone else here does.

>>5000

Re: this, I hate how a bunch of people resorted to in-fighting and getting their personal grudges involved in an effort to get people to STOP bitching. People are mad at other people because they think they implied this and someone else used what they said to say this etc. etc.

Needless to say, this anon isn't gonna leave over this bullshit and really wants this place to be good again.

So out of nowhere, I've developed some kind of stomach bug.
Vomiting, body aches, dehydration, the works.
This is going to be one hell of a day, I can feel it.

/siiiiigh

Really happy lately, my god such a sudden injection of good feelings.
It feels kind of like I'm made out of rainbows and unicorns with a dash of sugar and spice

>>5000
I think you're an alright admin.

Fucking depression kicking me in the balls at work, I hate this. I know I hate my job but let's be honest - everyone hates their job, and anyone who claims otherwise is either lying to you or lying to themselves.

I don't know how I'm continuing to make target. I begrudge every minute I'm there, it feels like such a waste of time. Eight hours a day - more if you count the time I spend getting there and home again - that I can never, ever get back. I'm throwing my life away, and for what?

Fucks sake, man. I hate being a responsible, tax-paying adult.

>>5000
I don't care what anyone else says, you're a hardworking admin and you do a fine job.

>have crush on guy
>finally friend him on Facebook
>he accepts
>find out he went to my high school
>oh god he knows I'm uncool

At least I have the Burton Ball tomorrow night. Despite my crushing defeat in finding the right dress (turns out I'm too fat for regular person sized but incredibly too skinny for plus sizes so it's like lol no clothes for Stereo at all), I did find an awesome skirt I forgot I had in my closet and am now going back to the mall to buy a shirt and accessories for it. I may not be as cool-looking as all the Goth kids in their corsets and steampunk wear and boots and fancy clothes, but damn it my skirt is cool and it will look awesome!

'Kay...so this week has sucked, as per usual, BUT! Today, one of my classes managed to actually make my day- even through HISTORY!

So, what happened? In my Honors Anatomy/Physiology class we finally got to dissect after so long- and its a big fucking EYE! Most amazing shit ever was seeing the choroid (picture related). Never thought something so pretty could be in a damn cow's eye.

That class always manages to cheer me up, especially since its just a normal one instead of IB or AP. Plus the people in there are a lot of fun; nobody wore any "protective gear" whatsoever.

YOU WANNA DISSECT A GODDAMN EYE? YOU DO IT WITH YOUR BARE HANDS- GLOVES ARE FOR THE WEAK!

After 6 months of waiting my fiancee's visa was finally approved.

I haven't felt this good in weeks.

Baby undergrad fake major roommate, I understand if you want silence if you are doing actual work (lol) or need to get up in the morning, but don't tell me to turn down the volume on my cartoons and then have loud sex with your fratfuck boyfriend.

>>5000
I've never told ya before but you have got to be on the top of my favourite admins list.
>>5028
also, I never knew the inside of a cow's eye looked like that! It's gorgeous.

I have to get my shit together for my job training and for the company I'll be having before it. Sigh. I wish I knew why this is so hard for me. I'm not a kindergartner.

In other news, I'm actually getting creative stuff done. Yay! I learn so much, it's great.

So, my sister and hey boyfriend occupy the room which has our router in it. It provides internets to the rest of the house, as well as for their 360. So, what does she do three fucking nights in a row?
Same time, 1:20~ AM, she cuts the wireless to the rest of the house, but still keeps her 360 connected so she can play Reach. Seriously? A good portion of my friends live in weird-ass timezones, so past 12 is really the only time I get to talk to them. BUT NOPE, REACH > ME ATTEMPTING TO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE.

Taking some of the shit I said in >>5018 back now.

>go to work, get given seemingly-attainable go-home target
>be sceptical of this as something always happens to prevent attainment of said seemingly-attainable go-home target
>be completely unsurprised when a systems crash prevents us from taking any calls until it's fixed, expect to scrape target a half-hour before the end of the shift like normal
>shit gets fixed surprisingly quickly
>TRIPLES DATA GETS LOADED EARLY
>SMASH TARGET BEFORE LUNCH
>EVERYONE COLLECTIVELY SHITS THEMSELVES WHEN THEY REALISE THE GO-HOME TARGET HAS ACTUALLY BEEN HIT
>LEAVE WORK AT 2PM
>GO SHOPPING WITH FRIENDS
>YEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

So now I'm sitting here listening to Journey with a massive grin on my face. Fuck yes.

So there's been some bullshit occurring around one person for a couple weeks. A few of us from my reg server had plans to get together for cake and birthday shenanigans in March. Two of us live within 40 minutes of each other, but the other two are a good two hours away by car (and one would be taking a train, so add three extra hours). Pretty serious plans. Well the other one within 40 minutes, with the more central house location, has been a total flake. He found a "new friend" and quite suddenly the internet doesn't matter, and therefore, people from the internet don't matter. So culminating a frustrating week trying to get hold of him to finalize plans (only 4 weeks out, which I feel is even a little short notice) was finding out that he double planned our shenanigans weekend with his "new friend". And now I have written him out of plans altogether, and holy shit do I feel good. I think today will be good day.

Oh, and if he tries to pull some bullshit with me to get back into plans I will tell him in no uncertain terms what I will do to his penis if he fucks with my plans like this again.

TL;DR Betsy takes shit from no one and means it.

Dude. Neighbor guy. Neighbor guy.

Your horrible screaming sex woke me up multiple times last night. When you decided to leave the apartment around 2 AM, 4 AM, and again at 5 AM and slammed the door as loud as you could each time, you woke me up and scared the shit out of me. I didn't wake up in time for class because of you.

And yelling at your girlfriend to get up and get the fuck out at 7 am wasn't very classy. She probably didn't get much sleep either.

The landlord invited me to a pizza party and I am so complaining to him about this shit when I get there.

>>4879
Problem is that my sistr is from a different dad and my father wouldn't be able to get custody over her like that.

My GP is a fucking quack.

Went to see her today over the increasing problems I'm having breathing and the constant pain I have in my knee. Refers me to a nurse okay, so she's not qualified to test me for asthma herself that's cool.
Wait, so you have a kit for us to test for it at home? Why can't I do it now?

And then she goes and passes off my knee as something 'young girls and boys sometimes get'.
And then calls me fifteen.
What the fuck bitch, my age is on your fucking records look it up oh my god.

>>5044
Why not complain? The NHS has these procedures in, just look them up on the GP service things and then complain to them. It's online and easy to do.

>>5040
how dare he make friends irl rather than the internet (and omg he srsly thinks people irl are more important than being on the internet????? WHAT A WEIRD JERK)
omg and it was only a full month in advance? what a dick right jeeeeeez

See this guys? This is what we don't do.

>>5053
Because completely abandoning one group of friends for another single person is perfectly alright.

And really, what does it matter that the friendship started on the internet? They're still friends, or at least were, and completely abandoned them.

>>5053
Excuse me, but you don't know the whole story leading to this situation. I suggest you shut your mouth before you make an even bigger ass of yourself.

>>5053

Speaking as the guy who would have to take a train, this whole thing is seven kinds of shitty and I agree with Betsy that it's completely asinine that our mutual friend is choosing to get his dick wet while blowing off any plans he already had with three other people. Especially since those people have been planning and setting this meeting up for weeks.

>>5054
>>5055
>>5056

Don't respond to faggots, guys.

Okay this stomach bug is really starting to piss me off.
I went the whole day feeling fine until BAM out of nowhere, my back started to ache again.
Now I have this feeling like I'm going to throw up, only when I go to throw up, I can't.

I feel like shit and I'm getting awfully pissed off because of it.

>>5063
Threw up and I don't feel much better.
Hnggh.

My date is tomorrow, and I'm really surprisingly not nervous. I don't know, maybe it's because she's singing to/at me on Skype right now and her voice just sort of makes me turn into a puddle of warm fuzzy goo. I'm sort of amused that my ex will be at the dance, but whatever. She keeps her distance.

I got gas in the car, I got tickets to the dance, I got a rad suit with a rad tie, I got an iPod full of music we both like, and I got the best advice from the best friend I could ever ask for. This weekend is going to be fantastic.

My only complaint right now is that I have a headache, but it's kind of my own fault for sitting in the dark with my bright ass laptop and Skyping with earbuds for five hours.

So my install of Office is fucked for some reason. Shit's corrupted as hell and Google tells me that the answer is to reinstall it, but I can neither start up the uninstall setup or the reinstall setup programs. It just tells me setup/uninstallation hasn't completed successfully.

I mean, Office still works, I just can't open any Office documents without Office already being open. Double-clicking them does nothing and right-clicking for the "Open" command or trying to open them via Recent Documents just gives me the error "The parameter is incorrect" and then also does nothing.

Why the fuck is this happening just as I'm becoming interested in writing for TF2 again?

>>5067
Use Open Office. Works with .doc too, no worries.

>>5053

FUCK YOU STOMACH BUG.
I SKIPPED WORK TODAY, CONKED OUT ON MEDS AND WOKE UP AT 2.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I FEEL AWESOME.
FUCK. YOU. STOMACH BUG.

I'M READY TO TAKE ON THE WEEKEND YESSSSS.

Got dressed an hour and a half early just so I could feel awesome in this suit for a little longer.

Aww yee, feeling good about my body for once.

Just the usual depressed shit.

Can't draw, failing, etc. At least my prospects for going into the military are good. Sad I can't see my boyfriend for a long while. Need to stop being Jealous as fuck, too.

I wake up on the morning of my only day off of the week. I zombie-shamble into the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee. I look down on the floor. What do I find?

(Evidently, a fly had gotten in and laid eggs in the bin.)

>Decide to stop having crush on this guy and fully support close friend who also has a crush on the same guy
>Sorta works, but feelings and emotions are still had
>Close friend goes out and tells crush that he likes him
>Crush admits to having an interest in men and that he likes close friend
>"OH MY GOD"s are had.

Don't get me wrong, I'm ecstatic for my friend. Finally! He has a chance to be with a good guy who is not like any of the other jerks he's been interested in. I mean, honestly, I knew I had no chance with this crush and thinking about it was just making things more complicated. Also, I know that my close friend needed this far more than me. He deserves it. I'm happy for him. I'm fine. I can deal. I'll get over it.
But for now I'll just wallow in my "forever aloneness" and feel sorry for myself.

I've been rewatching Pirates of Dark Water, which I absolutely loved as a kid. I was afraid that it would be extremely cringe-inducing since the last time I watched it I was about 5, but it's actually still really fucking awesome. I was really surprised. The sad thing is that now I want to fan over it, but the fandom is long dead, so I'm kind of on my own. It was also never finished, which is really heartbreaking since it had so much potential.

Aaaaaaahhhh I want to make this into a game so bad. One day when I have money and a studio and magic powers, I'm going to make it happen.

>>5086
I've been watching a lot of cartoons from when I was a kid too lately. Its amazing how lot of them are still funny and awesome. I should look up Pirates of Dark Water, I remember watching it but I don't remember much else. If you can't make a game out of it yet, you could make mods for current games?

>>5086

OH SHIT I REMEMBER THAT CARTOON TOO :D

Man, trust me. I know the feeling of being FANDOM ALONE all too well. ._.

>>5086
I LOVED that cartoon when I was younger. I always wanted to be a pirate after watching it.

>eat powdered donut
>powder falls all over self
>cannot get powder off, get it all over everything
>everything is ruined forever

my life

>>5089
Awww Tanner, you still have me! For some things, at least!

On topic, I feel tired but at least productive enough to draw. I'm getting somewhere with my practice and it feels great.

>cold pizza for breakfast
>fixed two bodices for theatre production so they fit our Cinderella
>got a third of my own costume done
>baked peanut butter cookie cake for Scoutpapa, most of other presenty stuff is done
>music theory homework is going well

Feels good man. Hope the rest of my day won't bring me down.

¡Olé!

Totally just skagged some shit I shouldn't have done in an eBay auction. Bought a new copy of Nintendogs, barely outstripped the last bidder's amount with my own bid in the last two seconds of the auction. Then eBay tells me after I've confirmed that bid that I need to make a higher max bid, since the other person's max bid was higher than mine. I decide that this price is more than I am willing to pay and leave it.

Then I get the email from eBay telling me I've won the item. I just paid for it. Someone's gonna be pissed - I can only assume that my bid got processed so close to the end of the auction that the other bidder's automatic max bid didn't get processed in time.

Ha ha, I'm amazing.

My writing sucks, and I know my English professor knows it. I really hate my first drafts and drabbles, they lack the detail and length that I want them but I just can't force myself to do it. I'm beginning to think that I just suck at writing. I really wish someone would tell me how to write a narrative that doesn't read like the written equivalent of an abstract painting. D:

>>5088
What I'd really like is to be involved in a AAA title of it; I think it would make an amazing RPG. One of my dreams is to have my own AAA game studio, so what I probably will end up doing is writing a design doc. I'd want to get the original creator involved so it would be true to his vision. That and I would love to see the actual animated series finished. ONE DAY IT WILL HAPPEN.

You disappeared into thin air 12 years ago. There's still a void in my soul where you should be. I wish you'd at least said goodbye.

I don't think I can even describe how fabulously this weekend has gone. The date went better than I had even hoped. It was this hilariously perfect transition from the beginning of the night ("HAHA WE'RE ON A DATE THIS ISN'T AWKWARD LET'S GET LOST ON THE WAY TO THE DANCE") to the middle (hipster bitching about the bad DJ while holding hands in the corner) to the end of the night (snuggling in bed while listening to/singing pretty music and falling asleep together). My parents caught us sharing the bed the next morning and I got snarked at a little, but it was so worth it. My dad was GIGGLING the entire time (he's ridiculously happy for me, it's adorable) so it wasn't a particularly intense conversation.

Today we watched some animu, went fabric shopping and hit an all-you-can-eat sushi place. That sushi was so fucking good oh my god. Seriously, in its entirety, I couldn't have asked for a more perfect weekend. Gonna draw her a thing and ask her if she wants to make it official tomorrow. c: All of my happy.

i feel inadequate and lonely.

>>5108

You are a beautiful person, inside and out. Don't ever forget that.

I was IM'd on facebook a little bit ago by my high school friend that I still keep in contact with. She rolled a minivan yesterday attempting to race it on a track and thought she was going to die. So she comes to me telling me a few things:

>I thought I might die, and I thought of you
>lol I felt like I don't give you enough credit for being awesome
>you're like one of those friends that everyone should have

This really made me happy; to know that someone out there thinks highly of me, even just one person, really makes life worth living. Her courage to put it out there and let it be known really made my weekend, and probably the entire week. Kinda makes me wish I was capable of loving women so I could go out with her, because she really is a beautiful woman, personality and looks-wise.

Best. Valentine's day. EVER.

Boyfriend surprised me at lunchtime with sushi and roses. No-one has ever bought me flowers before in my life! I wanted to dissolve into a gooey mess of love, but couldn't because I was at work. So, we had a picnic, and it was lovely, and I sorta get why people like Valentine's Day now (I've always seen it as commercial, but then, no-one's ever bought me flowers before).

Then, I got home, and found a parcel awaiting me with TeratoMarty's Bespoke Tea Towels within, including a letter from Mann Co. detailing their use - Best. Parcel. Ever. And that's including my many ThinkGeek purchases and my Razer Orcas.

Tl;dr: THE BEST DAY. I AM FULL OF LOVE.

brought some socks and farbic for my friend.
a BJD for me,and starve for the next few months.

i'm happy that i don't have to freeze my ass off out there patrolling on next week.

i want to sleep more but apparently my asshole dad thinks it's okay to slave his sick son to do some bloody powerpoint when it's 2am for 3days in row.fml.

oh god whats going on this time?

Decided to go live with dad in the end, but can't get myself to tell mom.

First a stomach bug, then cold symptoms, now a possible ear infection?
What the fuck is going on, body?
Stop it right now or I swear.

>>5106
Damn I'm glad your date went so well!
I'm also glad to hear that your weekend has been going fantastic so far. You definitely deserve it.

Stomach, you better behave now. I got shit to do and Exi arrives tomorrow.

>>5114
Seconding this...

I am confus.

It's raining, but my Anti-Valentine cookies have more comments than all the other Valentine posts combined. I think it'll be a good day.

>>5114
Is Mog leaving?

Um, unrelated but happy valentine's day or something. I'll just leave this here and do with it as you please.

All the drama on the facebook roleplay is killing me.
I owe a fic that I don't want to write.
First commission ever and it's supposed to be five pages long. I haven't written anything over two pages in months.
Valentine's day was the same as every other day, just with more gushing couples.
I'm desperately in love with a guy but I don't know what to say.

Well I think it's safe to say I feel the same as half the rest of the planet!

To say I am angry doesn't even begin to cover this. Bitterly disappointed, hurt, offended and even sad. They're in the mix too.

My current feelings on how people 'round these parts are acting.

FUCK pre-test nerves! I never had this in highschool.

If I failed my first Chem test, I am going to react really, really poorly. At least initially. I am not used to being uncertain about my mark, and I am definitely not used to failing academically. And I NEED this. I need this for Uni. And it's not like I've been slacking off on homework or in class or studies.

Now onto Math. Fuck.

>>3228
Oh wow you used the reaction image I was about to. Well then have something completely random. Or porn, in which case I might change it.

Now I have an ear infection. Thanks, body.
Waiting for my aunt to bring home my meds.

Don't feel well, my younger sister is trying to escape our batshit insane grandmother, school is boring as hell, and I couldn't be happier. What the fuck is wrong with me?

Had the most wonderful day with Scoutpapa. A dozen pink roses and a Hello Kitty plush throw. Made him peanut butter cookie cake, a plush heart with our initials embroidered on it and gave him two shirts.

Apparently there's another gift still coming guys. I'm pretty excite.

So sick. Feel aweful. Sore and freezing. Can't form complete sentances.

>>5067
I'm not sure if you have a PC or not or which operating system you use, but did you try going into the control panel in the start menu, and then going into add/remove programs and removing it that way? That's what I usually have to do if something won't uninstall correctly. After you do this, I usually go into the program files and manually delete everything associated with the program I just deleted, so that when it's reinstalled, it's forced to make new folders. That makes sure that nothing corrupted is left. If your program also makes folders in your documents folder, you might need to delete those, too. I hope this helps.

Good Valentine's day. I got a ton of candy from my mom, some yellow roses from my daddy, and -- oh yeah, a girlfriend. c:

Drew her a derpy little Valentine, mostly for giggles. Asked her if she wanted to make things official. She had the most adorable reaction of spazzing and flailing before finally just realizing what she was doing and going "... yeah. <3" So cute, I can't even.

It's a good day.

>>5140
Congratulations!

This was a pretty good Valentine's Day. Buuk's parents got us each a Computer Engineer Barbie. I pretty much lost my shit.

I decided to actually try and socialize with the people who are always at the commuter lounge at my university, and I regret it.

All the girls purposely talk like they're six and never fucking stop screaming. Most of the guys seem nice enough but a few obviously want into the girls' pants and it is terribly awkward to watch. A handful of them told really awful racist jokes that I doubt were told ironically or in jest. The n-word was used liberally. One dude gave out Valentine's Day cards to everybody, and a girl who received a card decided to lecture him about homosexuality and how it was a sin and a choice (the dude is gay, apparently). She later got extremely offended when she belched and I said 'God bless you' and she asked me who I was and why I was there and taking up space.

I'm usually a laid back person, but these people were infuriating.

Whoo, happy fucking Valentine's Day. Only person I had any desire to spend it with is on the other side of the country and there's not a damn thing I can do about it short of buying a plane ticked which I'm too poor to afford.
Fuck, why can't I be interested in people who aren't like, a thousand miles away?

Why can't I make this one phonecall? I know it's important, then why the hell I keep avoiding it? Didn't have this problem before. :F

>>5147
Solution: hang out with the gay dude. You and him can be freaks together.

lol drama

I'm still not sure why I'm not over my ex. I mean, we were both ready to move on and I was the one who suggested that maybe we break up or take a break and both of us were aware that our relationship had run its course. So why am I so jealous that he's treating his new girlfriend like a fucking princess and always talking about her and how perfect she is and I'm having trouble accepting that I'm single and alone?

Have a preformance on the 26th in which I play a major role. The whole production is a lip sync contest in which my class is very competetive. For the entire four minute song, I am to be dancing. I sprained my ankle this afternoon practising. Fuck.
I know I'll recover before the end of the week, but fuck if I wasn't scared when I fell.

Phew, scraped by with 70%.

Now I can't wait to bomb my math test tomorrow and drop to the secondary (but equally applicable to university) class.
Although I mean, it'd be nice to pass that too. But math and I have never, EVER gotten along.

>be able to get on the internet to dick around for the first time in weeks
>see the new announcements on the front page
Holy hat, what the shit did I miss?

Aside from that, had a pretty fine V-day, up until my friend from back home starts texting me, asking how many cards/flowers/guys interested/chocolates/ect. I've gotten. How many fucking times do I have to tell him zero? Then he went and declared that he would be my Valentine (what happened to asking?), to which I replied, "No, because you're being a dick."
Now he's still upset with me, and I'm left sitting here questioning which of us is the woman.

Also, just saw a spider. Now, normally those guys don't bother me. They eat mosquitoes which makes them a-okay in my book. But he started crawling across the wall towards the window that my bed is sitting under. I tried to shake the curtain to scare him away, and it just scared him into hiding under the blinds. Right before I need to get to bed.
Just, damn you, little guy. Why couldn't you have chosen the other window? Now I need to pull my bed around so I won't be paranoid that you'll crawl on my face while I'm sleeping.

>>5161
On the bright side, I ended up in a craft store for the first time in forever, and I also learned that craft foam can be constructed in such a way to replicate armor for costumes and stuff. I also bought a small swatch of fabric just to test out my hand-sewing skills as well as some paint and a new paintbrush so I can properly finish my Lady Gaga outfit.

Yay crafting!

why did I agree to do tumblr this is just another time sink in a time period where time sinks are just bad times all around

I'm so bloody tired.

I am so tired of being sick.
I feel like I can just never fucking win.
First a stomach bug, then a cold, then an ear infection, then a nose bleed, WHAT THE FUCK NEXT.
Seriously, I'm just waiting for the next big thing to ruin my life right now.

Sorry for the rant guys, I just REALLY need to get this out of my system.

It's been 3 years, still haven't gotten over you. I cut my hair last year, and just recently even bleached and dyed it, much to my parents shock/ school's disapproval. I only get the occasional "why'd you cut your hair!?" "That blue looks awesome!" from other girls.

I want to talk to you, I want to know you. But you live in one life, and I live in another. You're popular with everyone, living in the limelight of the drama and music class, and even in the Student Council. And I'm just a stupid little art student with no motivation and confidence.

Everytime you walk by me I look back at you, and I can sometimes catch you looking at me in class. The eye contact is just awkward, and I break it as soon as possible.
It's just cause I'm loud or weird, isn't it? Or my hair? You have no interest in me, and you'll probably go to Formal with some girl from your side of the school. I probably won't be going.

I was going to send you a rose on valentines day, but I was too embarassed/shy to buy one from the other student councilors. I walk around on the day, and I see hundreds of people with roses, given by friends and potential more-than-friends. It's my last year, and I wonder why I didn't do it...

I was just a lonely little girl with half a heart paperclipped to her uniform.

I hate you, Valentines day, I really do. You make me realise how lonely I am.

I wish more people would contribute to the reaction image thread in /resources/! Come on guys, I know you all have tons of awesome pictures lying around.

I wish i could find the reaction image thread in the chan. And i´m frustrated that i seem to be too STUPID, to find it. Yeah and i need to draw some cute chibilike pictures of all TF2 classes.
And i succesfully deleted all memories HOW to draw them in chibi, in advance to learn how to draw them a bit like they are. Thanks to the chan and the wonderfull artists here.
Maybe is should finally make a workshop threat. Maybe.

>>5182
Go to the new /resources/ board. It's next to /gay/.

Well look at that. Archives. FINALLY.

Also, the drivers in NH and VT drive me batshit. STOP BEING STUPID.

Damn it, sweet pickles, why do you have to be so tasty!? I'm afraid I might finish up the whole jar in one day!

>>5185
I'M SORRY I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN THEM UP IN ONE DAY INSTEAD OF THREE.

What is sleep. Haven't had any since Mid-January.

I took a nap because I was tired and ended up sleeping through a date or whatever I forgot I planned with a guy.

I am terrible at this whole "trying to start a relationship" thing.

FUCK YES ARCHIVES

Picture related, it's from one of the wonderful things I found in the archives. So going to set up Downthemall.

I just blew 300$ on shoes, dress pants and fancy shirts so I can be a fill in receptionist for one day in the office.
With an hour lunch that isn't paid.
Oh well. Least it's work.
Have a cute pom.

>meet my sister of similar age
>see her drawing animu and offer advice
>"BAWW ITZ MY STYLE!!!!"
I am disappoint

Guys, is there something happened??
Can I ask why Kumori is asking that on main page??

why is this whole 'i find you scary/intimidating/INTENSE' thing a recurring theme lately

i am just me

socializing is hard i guess

Some images in archive
/fanart contents doesn't work.
When I clicked some pictures to see it in full size, always error occured. They just ended up with a red X which all of you probably would know.
And all of thumbnail images all small sized and I can't watch them in enough size to see.
Does anyone who can give me an advice for this??
I would really appreciate if someone does.

>>5203
Thank you for working hard,Kumori!!
I hope things goes well.

There just isn't enough coffee in the world... Having a job is good. Having to get up super early for it is not. Bleh, I say.

>>5206

>Kill identical lookalike
>Sit lookalike at desk with sunglasses over eyes
>???
>Enjoy day

So my STI screening didn't include HIV. Which means I won't be able to get tested for that in time for the due date next Wednesday. So instead of a 2 page summary about how the testing went, I get to write a 6 page report on medical quackery.

In addition to my 10 page physics lab report, chem lab report on distillation techniques, pre-lab for extraction techniques, studying for chem AND physics exams next week, a university required writing exam on Saturday morning, and a mollusk quiz on Monday.

What's a weekend again? The time in between school days where you're just forced to do a ton of homework? Yeah, that must be it.

>>5210
>and a mollusk quiz on Monday
I'm sorry, but I laughed really hard at the thought of a mollusk quiz.

So, as I'm sure you're all aware, The Road To El Dorado is one of the best kids' movies ever made.

You can imagine my rage, then, when I sat down t watch it yesterSparkledog Centraly, only to find that the gorram disc wasn't in the case.

wut.jpg

I DON'T KNOW WHERE IT IS
I WANT TO WATCH IT
AARGH

>yesterSparkledog Centraly

Oh wordfilter, you so silly.

>>5220
i can understand ecksdee since you would never use it in a word. but wordfiltering a perfectly logical pair of letters?

thats just fucking stupid

>>5222
For the record, it wasn't supposed to be like that, and the filter was supposed to recognize the capitalization. It didn't work as planned.

da

>Hydra links me to article about Justin Bieber shooting his mouth off in Rolling Stone
>rage all night about/against rape apologist bullshit

I wasn't gonna sleep anyway, I guess.

Suicidal depression is not fun, children.

>>5227

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
http://www.reddit.com/r/suicidewatch

>missed too many classes already this semester
>feel horrible
>try to get to class anyway
>wait for the bus
>it's 20 minutes late
>realize if the bus ever does show up I'll only be in time for 10 minutes of class
>go home
>vomit everywhere
>call university's health services
>nurse on phone doesn't understand why I can't come in today I JUST THREW UP WOMAN I CAN'T WALK A MILE TO THE BUS STOP AGAIN TODAY AND THEN WAIT AROUND AND WALK THE MILE HOME FUCK YOUR SHIT
>she gives me a very hard time, sets up an appointment for Monday but tells me not to expect the doctor to give me a bogus excuse for missing class

Sometimes I wish I had the superpower to projectile vomit through the phone.

I did let my professor know what's going on, I really hope I haven't fucked myself over with all these absences.

I'm in one of those weird happy but sad places right now. I'm happy cause I just finished one of the best books I've ever read, (Undisputed by Chris Jericho), but at the same time I've just finished one of the best books ever written (Undisputed by Chris Jericho) and thus, there is no more of his marvellous work to read, boo!

>Minding my own business
>Phone rings
>be informed that I have interview Tuesday

I really hope I don't screw this up.

>my face when I heard Arcade Infinity is closing its doors for good next Saturday.
I kinda feel like I'm losing a family member. I've been going to that arcade for a couple years now.

The world of gaming will feel so empty without it... and AX11 will certainly be lacking in its arcade this year because they'd rent out their machines from Infinity. I can feel this.

Here's to giving SoCal the arcade experience of a life time, Infinity. You'll be greatly missed.

>>5234
Where is this arcade? I wish to experience it before it goes away. After Aladdin's Castle in the Del Amo Mall closed, there was no other arcade ever until the shitty one in the Long Beach Pike opened.

>pregnant friend posts about her upcoming kid's name
>suggests "Lyndzi Rae" and "Kennedi Rae"
>point out stupid spellings
>point out kids with weird names get picked on more
>pregnant friend goes apeshit
>mfw

Have fun counseling your brat when she becomes the school whipping girl, you stupid bitch

>>5228

Thanks, I'm actually a regular reader of Reddit so I find it funny those were the two links you chose to post. Anyway, I'm on two antidepressants after an attempt last year, and sometimes they wear off at the same time and leave me feeling very down, hence the message last night. I'm alright, thanks for your concern.

I feel lonelier with my Skype group than I did without them.
Sometimes I wonder why I continue to log on only to sit there like a dumbfuck and never get called and/or invited. I was in a call for five hours with my mic muted and not a single fuck was given. Sure, when someone else logs on it's always like "hey so-and-so get in this call" or "hey so-and-so why aren't you on WoW yet?" But with me, nothing. I know a lot of them don't like me, but I wish they would just go out and tell me instead of having me have hope that there's some actual concern there.
I'd be angry if I wasn't so depressed over this. God damn.

Spent the night getting the jukebox up. Forget to eat dinner. Didn't get to spend much time with Turret. MY CONSCIENCE IS KILLING ME.

>>5240
Stop going there then. Seriously. All it seems to do is depressing you, and if you feel neglected, you should go somewhere where you aren't.
We should skype sometime. Name is perrydotto.

would anyone be interested in doing a skype group that i might be welcome in, because lately i've been enjoying skype a lot

So I went LARPing yesterday for the first time this year. I’ve been feeling lonely lately and thought that joining a group similar to my likes and interests will make me new, instant friends. How wrong was I. So, I spent most of the day alone among high level, diehard larpers who kicked my ass repeatedly throughout the battle. No one would talk to me, the people I managed to get attention from was like talking to a brick wall. At the end, my ride just went off and left me at the park so I had to spend 20 bucks on a taxi to go home. I feel depressed, even more alone then before and amateurish because I can’t even handle a light boffer weapon.

I got my first resin model to paint yesterday. Its absolutely gorgeous and I am so friggin excited to start working on it.

In other news... YAY FOR THE RETURN OF THE JUKEBOX.

Fff. Why am I grumpy over the dumbest fucking things. Seriously I get my panties in a knot over roleplay groups on the internet? What the hell, self?

And then, my girlfriend just... somehow completely gets it. I'm being the dumbest stupid bitch about this and she just completely understands somehow and actually does her best to fix it despite me not even being grumpy for a decent reason. Seriously she is just... no one's ever been this good at cheering me up. I don't even get it.

Makes me laugh when she says she's bad at being a good girlfriend. Fff she is fantastic.

>>5236
Arcade Infinity
Rowland Heights, CA
1380 Fullerton Rd

It's literally right off the 60.
Pull into the diamond plaza and in the very back on the second floor, there it is.
It's open from 1:30 to 10 or so on weekdays, 1:30 to 1 am on weekends, something like that.

Seriously, visit this glorious place before it goes. It's so spectacular.

I recently watched a fight break out in the facebook roleplay's chat, after someone butted into a roleplay and ruined it.
The rest of the group save for me, the friend that had been butted in on and a random guy all sided with the person who intruded.

Silly, random rp I can allow them to do that. However this was a serious rp.

Why am I even still on this roleplay, some of these people are utterly horrid roleplayers.

Oh that's right, the guy I love is on there and I can't talk to him anywhere else and it's one of the only places I can get to roleplay because I am horrid at keeping track of forums! Sigh.

So there's this character that I've been role playing with for a little while now. And my friend has really come to like him, so she's all "I wanna try him!". Later, she joins a place with him.

>my face when I see that she plays him better than I do.
Why is this no fucking surprise. Any character of mine she takes, she always plays them better than me and it makes me feel so crappy and lame, man. She always says "oh, mine is based on your's! you're so much better!"

Don't lie man. Don't lie. Just... take my character and leave me alone, man. /sigh

- freshly formatted hd to ensure clean wipe of laptop = feels good man
- TWELVE HOURS OF VOLUNTOLD DUTY FINALLY COMPLETED WITH AN EXTRA HOUR OF MAKING SURE EVERYTHING'S SQUARED AWAY = feels fucking awesome man
-friend canceled trip to chinatown = feels horrible man
-spell checking drunk = difficult as fuck
also amaretto is like candy
Shit I need to get off base this weekend

It never fucking fails.

Every one of my friends seems content to live in disgusting, filth-ridden hovels. Litter boxes with weeks worth of catshit. Cobwebs everywhere. Kitchens caked in months worth of crumbs and rotted food. Toilets that have never seen a brush. Inches of dust on everything and a lovely, stale musty smell that permeates every room.

I'm not looking for sparkling mansions every time I go to hang with a friend, but seriously. Am I the only person in the 25-30 age bracket that cares about how clean my house is? Like, at all?

And they always bitch about being sick all the time. I FUCKING WONDER WHY.

>>5252

i hope you don't let one terrible LARP session ruin your whole experience.
If you live in the toronto area, i suggest checking out http://www.underworldlarp.ca/
a very friendly group of poeple, very open to new players. they even taught me how to use the boffers the one time i went. Though Larping really just wasn't for me.
If not, i hope you find an awsome one

I think being sick all week broke me. I feel so apathetic towards everything.

So I know we've got more than one loli on here. Serious question - I've got nearly four yards of a nice, unassuming plaid left over from a renfaire bodice, which I want to make into a classic lolita jsk with very clean lines... and unassuming enough to be worn without a blouse and petticoat. The fabric screams victorian boarding house to me. I'm no stranger to sewing, I just need an idea for a style.

>>5273
requesting picture of said plaid with which to judge!

My mom is insisting that a lesbian chef on TV who refers to herself as Georgie instead of Georgina only does so because she's a lesbian. Instead of, y'know, the possibility that she just hates her name/doesn't think it fits and the two aren't mutually exclusive.

>>5250
I'm generally on Skype a lot more now so you should add me and I could host a chat or something. Skype name is stereo-or-bust.

In unrelated news: Finally his my ex's girlfriend's feed on Facebook so that should help a bit with me feeling miserable every time she talks about how wonderful he is. Also, I think I have a date on Tuesday. Also one on Wednesday with another guy but I don't know since I'm terrible at this dating thing.

okay guys i need your burning hot consumer honesty !!

the BE A MAN bag!
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the width and height of your average netbook with about a 30" strap, and 4" deep; outer and lining 100% cotton with double interfacing.
with no other context whatsoever, like, no knowledge of the cost of materials or labor time, how much would you expect to pay? how much would you be willing to pay?

this is part of my market research lol

Lately, every once in a while I'll have dreams that involved my betta being maimed or hurt somehow.
Then I wake up the following morning and scramble to my desk to see if he's okay.
And there he is, every morning, swimming at the front of the bowl to say "good morning mom!" and looking just fine.

fffff-- stop scaring me, nightmares. Leave my Kiet alone.

Speaking of Kiet though, I upgraded his bowl; now it's a two gallon. He's so happy with all the extra space, it makes me so pleased.

Awkward Anon, please write me a message on Skype once you can, I didn't quite catch your Skype name. Pfff Perry, learn to pay attention.

Feelingsrelated, I'm still happy.

I GIVE UP

I LOVE THIS SHOW TOO MUCH
FUCK YES PONIES

>email chem lab instructor on Friday to see if something needs to be in the pre-lap that wasn't in the instructions but was last time
>wait all weekend
>no response
>go into lab without it in my notebook since it wasn't asked for
>lose points because it's missing
>"But it wasn't in the prelab!"
>"I emailed you this morning; you should have put it in."
>check email
>email sent at 7:56 AM
>I left the house for class at 7:30 AM.
Is this how the university system is? They don't respond to anything and then expect you to do what's NOT asked for and then mark you off when you don't live up to unspoken expectations? Or is this bitch just one-in-a-million?

>>5312
Seems about normal to me.

Then again after my first year I now know to do more work than the teacher ever says you have to do.

Wow. Just wow. Hey, roleplay group. Would it be too much to ask to stop letting the fucking drunkards play the IC games?

We just had someone come in completely shithammered that wanted to play with us. And of course, they let her. First round, she completely spammed the fuck out of the game, confused the hell out of everyone by claiming things happened that didn't. And of course, I can't say anything for risk of offending anyone - not to mention it was my character that was being accused of being mafia based on things that didn't happen. So if I say "hey, can we stop letting non-sober people play please," they'll just say I'm butthurt because my character didn't win. My character is a prick, of course he's gonna get accused of shit even when he's on the good side - that's not what I'm mad about. I'm mad because your drunk ass is spamming the game, making it lag, and ruining it for everyone else. Either put the bottle down or stay out of other peoples' shit when you're too fucked to type.

Founder's Day celebration tonight, yay! Free sausages and bottle rockets to celebrate Baden Powell's birthday with the whole District.

SAUSAGE SIZZLE FUCK YEAH

I feel like a fucking idiot

I'm feeling pretty annoyed with all these ghetto ass guys always asking me if I have a boyfriend and if I'm looking. If I wasn't doing my job at the time I would tell them "Well I certainly am not looking for you."

Don't get me wrong, if I met a black guy who was into animation, comics, internet, and video games, I probably would date him. But none of these guys have been.

It's just so fucking discouraging that these are the only guys who express any interest in me, and I'm starting to think that the color of my skin is more of a factor than I ever thought it should be.

I have never been this amused at a fight that I can remember. Nothing could have made that fight any better- I mean, contradicting yourself by doing the same thing I was doing for the same reason, all while trying to convince me otherwise. And sister dearest, you called me condescending when you tried to undermine my every effort, then did everything you could to try and irk me just because. It's not working this time. Your efforts are just amusing.

>>5299
I have nothing against the show. But everyone in my university is losing their shit over it, and I'm getting tired of the fanbratting. They're doing MLP fancomis instead of their research papers. It's just too much and it's leaving a really bad taste in my mouth for it all.

>>5274
Pardon terrible webcam quality, cannot seem to find my camera. Also too lazy to go downstairs and get the fabric itself, so here's the bodice I used it for.

Oh my god. The dinner I just had was amazing. There's this place near me that is this Caribbean take-out (you can eat there but there's 16 chairs) called Back-A-Yard. (see the amazingly tacky website here http://www.backayard.net/ ) Today's special was catfish and shrimp, jerk style, served with rice 'n' beans, fried plantains and tossed salad. Honestly, I didn't know catfish could be this good. Melted in my mouth like butter. The boyfriend got the chicken and ribs combo, and was jealous of my delicious fish.

I think an excellent end to a pretty awesome long weekend. Relationship is back on track, life is back on track. Feels good to be pretty much over that depression thing. Feels good to have my life back.

>>5297
Oh gosh, I seem to be forgetting the most important little bits of information these days. Sorry! My Skype name is tuna.and.curry
I'm always up for Skype shenanigans (despite being extremely shy and quiet at first) so anyone can add me if they want to.

Feelings: I'm doing pretty good! Although I'm saddened by the fact that the ONLY bookstore around here for miles is closing down, the sale Borders is having is just awesome. I managed to snag a couple of books I've been wanting for a while now, and all for a cheap price. I mean, I Am America (And You Can Too!) for $3? WICKED.

Just mailed a letter to Chrischan, it includes my phone number. Now I don't plan on trolling or anything, just think if he had some half descent influences in his life he might have a chance to be a better person. Probably just being naive, if so then mej.

>>5343
Aargh yes! Wanna take advantage of that sale. Wanna bend it over and make it my - oh it's only in-store? And we have a bajillion A&Rs and not a single Borders for miles? ffffffff

>>5343
I drive by a Borders that's closing on the way home from school. I'm thinking about taking some tip money and buying one or two things tomorrow on my way home.

Feelings: I'm depressed, have exams out the ass the next two weeks, reports due everywhere, don't have any money to eat out with, and I'm tired and my wrist is hurting like FUCK.

This is going to be some week. The only thing I'm looking forward to is a new episode of Madoka, but that's just the norm.

My two best friends are booze and the internet. None of us complain, start drama, and we always have a great time.

Sister finally managed to get this game out of our Xbox yesterday (we lost the power cord and only now discovered the 360 cord works for it too.) She's been playing it on and off for the past two days, and has gotten farther than she did in the entire time she played it before.

I just wish Blinx wasn't so slow that Chell could beat him in a foot race.

sklfjkajfj I have first milestone of diploma today in three hours, and will have to show my works to a bunch of important people. Slept for three hours, which doesn't help. Aaaah I'm so nervous.

One of the only days I feel like modeling something in 3D during my free time, and 3D Max decides it's going to act glitchy on me. It froze when I opened a brand new file and clicked the view cube, and the entire screen turned black after a while. After that, I just said screw it and shut my computer down. I'm going to have to search for some hotfixes and patches for 2011, I guess. That's what I did last time I had this problem, only with 2010. On the bright side, I finally got around to attempting to finish story mode in Little Big Planet 2, and my little brother played as well. He's better at the game than I am, so it was pretty hard to keep up, but we still had fun.

>>5354
Whew, I made it. :D I'm kinda proud of myself, since the spoken presentation was completely impromptu and I still managed to sell it to the staff. One girl barely made it, and her works were gorgeous, and she has to start over. :F Oh well, at least for today I can rest and finally play some vidya.

Captcha: jizirl. ohmy.

well I just bought myself a chest binder

I am kind of excited about that so I thought I'd tell the internet

Only one more day till I finish this mind sucking Cert 2&3 Business and Customer Contact course. ONLY ONE MORE FUCKING DAY.

I will be so glad to be rid of this stupid "YOU CAN'T SIT LIKE THAT BECAUSE YOU'LL BE GOING AGAINST OH&S AND THAT MAKES YOU THE WORST WORKER!" bullshit can the woman next to me who is probabally the most annoying, insensitive bitch I've ever met.

Oh and there is this other guy I want to yell at because he's so goddamn lazy about everything we do, stop snorting and pffting and sighing at the tasks and get shit done. You're 40 and clearly here for a reason. No one is forcing you to sit there and do it. God damn I'm the youngest in the room and you act like a 5 year old not wanting to do work.
So fucking what if we don't finish at 2:30? we're meant to go until 4 and we could easily do 3 Units per day but because of your passive agressive lazy arse, we only do 2 and we drag this godforsaken course out to 5 weeks. I do not want to waste a god damn more minute of my time because you couldn't do a set of questions and you make stupid noises at the Trainer of detest. Grow the fuck up and get back into the real world.
/rant

ONLY ONE MORE FUCKING DAY

I'm worried about my friendship with someone I met over the summer. Last time I talked to her was in the fall and it was fun, but she hasn't responded to anything since, though she hasn't unfriended me or blocked me from anything either. I'm so confused.

I just spent the past 7 hours up in my room, reading about star trek and looking at fanart. I officially have no life and i'm probably going to end up dying as a lonely virgin.

>>5380
so talk to her? make the first move I mean, maybe she's sitting there wondering the same thing. "man why hasn't she talked to me are we still friends or not" only way out of that loop is for somebody to talk to somebody

My feelings are fairly mediocre
Then I put some 60% Lindt chocolate (the kind with the semi-liquid centre) in my mouth
And now everything is wonderful

Also lol how do I tripcode?

>>5386
Ha, NOT LIKE THAT apparently.
Screw you, 20 hours of waiting for the thing to generate.
Screw. You.

...need more chocolate.

Awwww snap, it feels so good to bring an old role play muse out of retirement.
I missed you Roku, I can't believe I forgot how SPECTACULAR you are.
You're my favorite Pop'n Music character for a reason, you super star.

Guys I think I just had an awesome date tonight that left me with stand-up comedy, becoming too drunk, riding the train drunk so I can get some photos developed, and burgers.

Tonight was best night and tomorrow should be even better!

>>5384
I have been; I sent her an email a week ago, and I sent her some IMs today. That's why I'm confused, she hasn't responded to any of that.

>>5393
oh

then yeah that kinda looks like you got ditched and she just doesn't want to unfriend you because she doesn't hate you or whatever

I mean I'm guilty of doing that same thing
at least as far as never taking people off the friendslist goes

:C

>>5395
It's weird because she's an irl friend from my internship in California. We actually did some stuff together irl and we kept in touch until some arbitrary point in the fall. She was supposed to come to Nekocon, but she dropped off the face of the Earth without returning any of my texts or voicemails. It was actually kind of shitty of her since I was planning on rooming with her and had to work out hotel shit with other friends last minute. I found out she'd been in a car accident on Facebook and sent her a PM asking what happened and if she was okay, and I never got a response. So that's pretty much what happened. I left her alone for a while and then emailed her again after a long gap. Why she hasn't unfriended me on Facebook or blocked me from any of her IM clients, I don't know; that's why I am so confused.

>>5396
well, this is me talking about myself to try to give you a perspective on Why People Do This Thing, not saying This Is What Is Up With That Chick You Know 'cause, like, I don't know her and shit:

unfriending somebody or blocking them on IM is really FINAL
it is like walking up to them and saying SO YEAH WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS

whereas leaving somebody on your friendslist and just never talking to them is like just never returning somebody's phone call

it's less confrontational and doesn't feel as much like YO, I'M REJECTING YOU NOW
even in situations where straight-up going YO, I'M REJECTING YOU NOW would be preferable because it's at least not passive-aggressive
it's just easier
know what I'm saying?

Happy. Saw Wicked the musical, in love with it ♥

Bus ride home made it better. Friends message me so as not to alert the subject of our conversation, that he (my crush) has been sneaking glances all day.

holy mother of crud i feel like I could fly.

for fuck's sake, it is not socially acceptable for ANYONE to bust out a razor and give their face/arms/hands/neck a quick "touch up shave" IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS. I know you're trying to become a woman and everything, but seriously, you are doing is so wrong I can't even process it. God this shit grosses me out so bad.

I might not be so angry about it if you weren't learning how to be a woman from your shitty shoujo yuri manga. Fucking hell.

>Get ready for work super early
>Go to bakery on way to work, have ham and cheese croissant
>Still get to work half an hour early
>Tool around in TF2Chan IRC
>Suddenly realise I have internet friends that I speak to more often than IRL friends
>Am okay with this

>>5399
I finally got back in touch with her. She's apparently just been really busy and socially flaky. She's an unbelievable sweetheart so I think she means that.

Show is going to pull together, I feel it. Even though we don't feel like we're close enough yet. Curtain's in a week, gotta get off book, Mama. Get your ass in gear.

Also, captcha: luvupn. I definitely do have a lot of love up in my life right now and I love it. <3

My reaction to reading TF2 fanfic on Fanfiction.net

People actually LIKE this? *face palm*

Also, my back hurts like hell.

>no sleep for 30+ hours
>Staring at a screen for those 30 some hours to finish a project.
> next class is modeling in 3D max.
> eyes are burning.
> class won't end till 9pm.

lets do this.

>>5408
oh yay :D glad it worked out!

(all my "happy" reaction images look really sarcastic, I'm sorry)

I am a little bit terrified. I have family in Christchurch. Haven't seen them since I was two, we keep trying to save money to visit them but something happens (the heating system dies, mum's car's totalled, etc. etc.) and I'm worried I'll never see them.

>massive argument with boyfriend spanning from 7pm to 12:15am
>decide that the only thing to do is to make more time for each other
>curtain is in a week
>still have classes

fuuuuuuck. Somebody get me a time turner or something.

I'm looking for advice or support.

Without going into too much detail, my brother and I had a coercive, incestuous relationship since we were children. Now that I'm in therapy and have been making huge steps in recovering from depression and such, I'm struggling to separate from him. So far I've gone three weeks without answering his calls, but he's grown more and more psychotic and desperate as the days have gone by and he is (predictably) calling me WAY MORE now. He's leaving messages of himself just breathing, or talking with different accents and making vague threats. He left one message where he spoke like a gameshow announcer where he basically just reminded me that he knows where I live and that I don't have a car.

He's hitting the liquor extremely hard according to my parents. My father needed a ride to the hospital and my brother took him, drunk, speeding at 90 MPH on back roads while waving around a flask full of gin. I've ridden with him while he was like this a few times before, so I know it's not a lie.

I've had to talk him out of suicide a few times before, and I am willing to bet he's going to start leaving those kinds of messages soon. I absolutely cannot answer his calls or call him back or answer my door for him or it will undo all the work I've done. But it's so damn hard. Even though I know he's a manipulative abusive dickwad, I get guilted into helping him.

My therapist is supporting me but I only see her once a week. I guess I'm just looking for a 'hang in there, kid' and some validation.

>>5434
*hugs* Wish I could give some advice but this is a bit over my head. Maybe you could have your brother institutionalized? Seems there's enough evidence for it. I hope everything gets better.

>>5434
Yikes, that's a situation and a half.
It seems as though your brother is taking this separation as hard (or if not harder) than you are, though that is not to say that I'm making light of what you've gone through. By the sound of it, you've made a ton of progress and no way would it be good to lose ANY of that in a vain attempt to help him.

Your brother needs help and, unfortunately, in your state of recovering this would be all too much for you to properly handle. I'm sorry if this sounds condescending, I mean it as sincere as possible, but you still have your own issues to face and tackling too much at a time would just make things worse.

I know it's expensive, but any sort of therapy would be the right start for your brother.
I'm sorry if this was of no help, I just hope the best for yourself and for your family. Just keeping going at it strong, I'm sure you'll get through it.

I bought another betta today!
His name is Changsai, and he's the prettiest betta I've ever seen in my life.
No jokes, I've never seen a betta this beautiful.
His colors are just striking and his fins are so long and elegant.
He's a black, red and blue delta tail.
I don't impulse buy pets, but oh my god, when I saw him, I had to have him.

I set him up and now he's happy in his new home.
He's really shy, but I think with enough attention, he'll become a social little cutie just like my super star, Kiet.

another all nighter tonight.

Lets order some pizza and get down to business

I love my new medication.

But I wish I had more friends.
I would if they didn't prove themselves to be asses. Or at least people that would use me like a toy and toss me when they were bored.
SAD TIEMS.

>>5439
Pics!

>>5445
People can be such bastards, but every now and then you find someone who will be a good friend.

Perry has a sad because Exi left after 9 days of awesome visit. I'm now vulnerable to my asshole brother and stress again. My job training starts on the 7th of March and I'm both excited and fucking terrified. Especially of riding the train alone.

Oh man.

I have to have results for my research in 2 weeks?

Fuck.

Best birthday ever.

Got rather drunk, had a fest of ribs and shrimps for diner topped with a it almost felt like porn in my mouth chocolate and caramel cake. Also: hot tub. I got chocolate strawberry black tea as a gift too. Shit I love my dad and his girlfriend for all that.

And I totally got a free piece of cake the night before from the very cute guy who usually serves our table on Wednesday night at the coffee place we go to every week my friends and I. And there was someone I haven't seen in quite a while who was there too.

So damn ridiculously happy. And thank God for spellchecker because damn I'm still rather drunk...

This morning was great.
Dragon Age 2 demo came out, so I loaded it and was prepared to have the pixels stress my graphics card.
Imagine my surprise when the graphics auto adjust to a level where visuals are decent and it runs at a rate that's not bad.
Now to wait for a sale, since I am too cheap to fork out $60 for a game.

I haven't openly said this but fuck I want to move out of my dorm. I've just been stagnating for the past two years just floating around and playing video games. I've gone to college and I've discovered very little about myself. The only problem is I have to start commuting and live back home (Fun fact, still in the closet there)...but the problem is I don't care, I have to deal with everyone's problems and not my own...but dat commute...god damn.

Having doubts whether the guy that likes me isnt just one of those guys who dates a chick just for physical use.

Then again, I can't say anything cause no-ones ever liked me before (not that I've known of).

Friends are supportive, saying its cute and all. I just kinda feel... helpless? cause I have no guts to y'know, ask him about it...

advice?

Oh my god enough with the snow already! Sick of it! Argh.

>>5465
I dated a guy like that for about a month over the summer. It was also the first guy who ever liked me. I basically just did what I was comfortable with and then when I got bored I ended it. I didn't let it get that far and treated it like a learning experience. If you want to do it at all, I'd say just do what you're comfortable with and as soon as you start to lose interest or not feel comfortable anymore, end it.

It's currently snowing where I grew up (about 100 ft above sea level) and it might snow in San Francisco tonight, but there's an even higher chance of snow where I am, about 40 min south of the city. I am so freaking excited.

Oh my GAWD!

I swear the next time someone asks me if my earbuds are for trade, I'm going to take an Equalizer and shove up their ass and then take a medigun and heal it so they can forever be known for having a stick up their ass.

Over and over I keep telling the same guy on an achievement server I volunteer a lot of my gaming time towards helping other players obtain achievements (though most of the time I see a lot of random RDMing) that my earbuds were a birthday gift from a close friend and they aren't for trade. Yet almost every single time I see this player active and not idling the moment he sees me automatically wants to trade and offers me so many hat choices for my earbuds and every time I say no and close the trade. Now, I think I'm just gonna decline his trade requests each time till maybe he gets the message that maybe my earbuds AREN'T for trade.


On a lighter note, oh Georgia you silly state! It's still February and the temperature reads 63 degrees F and already the trees and plants are budding out and starting to produce flowers. Guess this means I should throw my Sniper costume on soon and go run around in the flowers like some plant-controlling hippie from The Nucleus Incident.

my chest binder arrived :3

it was really hard to get on (I had to get help) but it's really surprisingly comfortable

which is good because I probably won't be able to take it off alone either

>>5480
What's it for?

Had rehearsal for almost ten hours today. Entire show is blocked, closer to opening than I'm comfortable with. All the costumes are done.

I've never wanted a show to be done with so badly before in my life.

>>5481
cross-dressing. I'm like a C/D cup; an Ace bandage doesn't work, so on previous occasions I've had to put on an a-shirt and have somebody wrap my chest in duct tape over the shirt, which was less comfortable and could only be taken off by cutting the shirt off my body. obviously with it being that much of a production I rarely ever bothered doing it, even though I'd really really like to be able to go out in public as a boy more often. so I bought a binder that's shaped like a hip-length a-shirt, which is also good because I'm fat and have big hips - v female shape - and the binder kind of turns me into a tubular chub-sausage, which is less girly-looking (although to be honest just wearing men's jeans does a lot for the shape/impression; they're cut way more differently from girl's jeans than I was aware beforehand)

ftr i got it from here: http://ftm.underworks.com/ paid for it on tuesday and it got here on friday, they had it shipped out the very morning after I bought it, very nice service

>>5468
Thanks. I think I'll just go with the flow for now and see where it ends up :)

>>5452
Here he is in all of his gorgeous glory.
I took this picture before I bought him at the pet store.
Can you believe that he was stacked at the very bottom where no one could see him?
I was lucky to have even spotted him!
I bet if they had him at the top of the rack, he would have been bought in like, ten seconds.

He's so quirky. Unlike Kiet, who comes out to view whenever you approach him, Changsai only likes to frolic when I'm laying on my bed, across and away from him.
And yet when I approached him with a camera, he came out to pose. Psh.
He's a stubborn eater, too. I had to coax him this morning into eating just one pellet. He wouldn't eat anything more.

I have a feeling training him to respond to food cues won't be nearly as quick and easy as it was with Kiet.
Kiet got it down in about a week. Hah.

But yeah... sorry for the rambling, but I just love this little bugger.
He's definitely a great addition to my little family and I don't regret purchasing him.
Totally worth getting scolded from my uncle.

>>5470
It better snow here I just want to watch everyone lose their shit.

Feelings. Um, I'm not used to this entire notion of someone liking me and taking me nice places. I could get used to this.

Just got back from a full day of Knott's with my beautiful girlfriend. It was our first time really hanging out since we made things official (hour drive + no license and full school schedule on her part = not getting to see each other as much as we'd like) but it was really, really fantastic. We are so ridiculously comfortable around each other. And apparently, all she has to do to get me on terrifying roller coasters is make a cute face. (Not that I didn't enjoy them, I'm just a pussy in lines.)

Got home to find a package I've been waiting on, an awesome dinner and some great roleplay responses.
Best. Day.

Got a lovely little blue betta today :D he's a little lazy, but hes a cutie. He doesn't like it when someone watches him eat, though.
Gives me someone to talk to whilst I'm home alone.

Ten hour rehearsal yesterday. Six hours today. As much as I love musicals, god damn am I ready for this show to be over. At least I'm finally off book.

Spending time with Scoutpapa afterwards today, so that makes everything better <3

Went through my graduation ceremony yesterday and I couldn't feel any more proud of myself! Right now we have over a foot of snow and it's still snowing. I can't wait to go play in it!

so in a silent bet between my mother and me, i am taking a break from my meds today and tomorrow

she thinks i will 'feel better' and that my taking my meds every day (as prescribed) is 'unhealthy' and i 'need a break'

we will see, mother, we will see

>>5500
It's a betta-palooza!
I demand pictures of this adorable little bugger.

Also... mood: pretty good!
I had a pretty good role play session last night.
And this morning, Kiet greeted me when I woke up as usual.
I dunno' but that always just puts me in such a good mood.

FUCK YES

I GOT INTO THE UNIVERSITY I WANTED

FUCK YEEEEEEEEEEEEES ARTI'S GOING TO A GOOD UNIVERSITY

I think I broke my new computer. It's been great for the past few months, but today when I tried to change my screencap button in Steam to the 'End' button, my sound messed up. Now I can't hear out of my headphones, just the speakers. I've tried everything, but I can't figure out how to fix it. I mess all my computers up apparently.

>>5509

Here he is. Named him Howl. He's getting used to his new bowl atm :D

Mood: not so great. My bro pulled a 'joke' on my parents and now they're fighting amongst themselves! Mum's gotten depressed so we have to stay home and watch her. She's really got to stop acting like this :I

>>5434
Keep a will of steel, I believe in you. I have no experience with any of that, but hell in a handbasket will trundle off if you stand firm, just stay strong. You've sought help, and even that needs strength to do, just keep your shoulder to the wind.

You will make it through.

>>5492
>>5515
Shit man, you guys are making me want a betta! I've been wanting a new smaller pet for a while now, and I'm thinking a cute fishie would be a good starter. It's just difficult with two cats roaming about, especially when my dad puts the little one before his own family on most occasions. (Not really exaggerating there but that's a whole 'nother story.)

Other feelings: I have fantastic friends. I opened up about my dad being drunk to a small group of online buddies, and one of them sent me this. So I'm sending it forward to anyone that needs it - I love everyone on this chan, and any of you going through hard times right now, you will get through it. I believe in you.

I just went to Video Games Live. Buuk and I went dressed as Anju/the chicken lady from Zelda and BLU Sniper, respectively. It was amazing and I will absolutely do it again.

I'm pretty fucking excited. Things are actually going my way; I got invited to submit to an art book, am going to be in a gallery show and am getting a 3-8 mini story in one of the indie comics in the city.

I've always been my own worst critic art wise and to have people appreciate what I'm doing enough to try and put it any kind of spot light is just really satisfying.

Dreading tomorrow. It's either:
A) Have to sit through an hour or so of 'CARE' class, which is four people from each grade (8-12) in the one room learning about making friends/procrastination/whatever tripe.
OR
B) Sit through possibly a whole day workshop from "Mighty Minds", a group of brainless fools trying to teach us how to better ourselves just by drilling it over and over into our brains

... B) would be the better option for me right now cause then I'd be able to sit with my friends for the day.

But still; FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Damn you, Saikano, I blame you for this.

My fingernails! They're black and silver! And SHINY. This makes three times I've painted them in the last twelve months

Everything smells like chemicals aargh

But my hands are pretty

Yesterday was good. Unnecessary party with family today, not looking forward to actually getting out of my pajamas.

Also, shameless plug, my friend's little sister needs help on deciding to go to her senior prom, so pass this link around until she does. http://www.fblikebook.com/likes/view/6043

I'm so fucking happy, guys. School is awesome, my friends are awesome, my bithday was yesterday and that was awesome.

I feel like a thousand happy emoticons at once, bro.

i don't like being an officer for my cinema club. i always end up as the unorganized butt monkey and group fuck-up and i don't like being reminded of it.

So my sister has a stepson and stepdaughter and a bunch of teenaged girls she used to/still does/etc foster-mother so I have this list of nieces and nephews in middle and high school who I had to friend on facebook or my sister would frown at me for dissing them. I actually fucking love this because they ignore me and I get this hilarious little window into TEEN DRAMA.

Today one of my nephews posted "Omg people tell straight up...what is this little secret women code with fruit???"

I have no idea what's going on with this but the implied levels of DRAMA and TEENAGERS DOING SHIT THEY THINK IS SO CHOOL are amazing

I am now the Creepy Uncle posting cryptic comments on their facebooks
just going "lol"

I don't know how to say no. I don't know how to avoid unnecessary committments. I don't know how to calm myself down. I don't know to think before I speak or type. Why do I keep fucking up the best thing to ever happen to me?

Katya coming back to the chan?
EES GOOD DAY

>apply to college
>get letter from said college stating they got my application
>have been checking site to see if they offered anything yet

COME ON DAMN IT I REALLY WANT THIS ;-;