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No. 1212
Another side story, NOT an update of the main.
Sickness
“I am not stupid, Doktor!†the massive man pinned the BLU Medic to the wall; he had no way of escaping, “Why do you treat me different from team!?†Medic hesitated. What do I say? How can I say?
“Herr Heavy, put me down right now or I vill file you for harassment! You vill be replaced ah-“, The Heavy rammed his lips down upon the Medic’s neck, such force winding the smaller man. Pressing their chests together the Russian gripped tighter, moving his lips to meet the startled man’s. The warmth and wetness elected an instant moan from the doctor before he grasped at what just happened.
“I knew it...†Heavy pulled back glaring, not loosening his grip in the slightest, noses touching as he grunted. “You are a coward, Doktor.†Medic bore a look of complete astonishment.
“V-Vat?†Heavy let go of the man, walking out of the room in a rushed state. I will be ruined, I will be spat out. How could he tell? Medic panicked, his heart pounding and hands shaking.
He sprinted to his desk, tidying files, putting away folders. What am I doing? What can I do... he’s probably out there already telling the team. He gasped for breath, unbuttoning his jacket to loosen his collar. He placed his hands on the desk, trying his best to breathe deeply, puffer in view just in case. Oh what have you done dummkopf, what have you done? Wait... You didn’t do anything. He... Medic came to, his thoughts now rational as he looked towards the infirmary door somewhat wishing the large man was still there. “Heavy you... you’re ill like me?â€
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Many awkward days past as the Medic tried to do his job, running after his Heavy. The Russian only pausing when the Medic needed his puffer, catching his breath best he could. “Come along now, Doktor.†The German cringed; the larger man spoke so coldly towards him now.
Medic whispered just enough for the man to hear, “I am not a coward.†A curious brow rose from Heavy at the man’s soft words.
“What was that?†He turned making eye contact for the first time since their previous encounter. Medic wavered; he did not fear the man but was put off since his unusual behaviour.
“I said I am not a coward. Vat you did was unacceptable. You are lucky I have not gone to Admin about zis.†Although I cannot blame you too harshly if you have this disease.
The Heavy lowered his gun, “Then why not just say you were... what is word... homos-“
A weighty, forced cough interrupted the man. “I am ill, Herr Heavy. Nothing more, nothing less, I vill sort myself out and I suggest you see me for a check up. Your behaviour the other day vas very concerning.†Before the man could deny the Medic went onwards still within range of the Medigun’s beam but far enough to prove that the Russian had no say in the matter. “You vill see me at 1630, do not be late.†Heavy scratched the back of his bald head and decided to get today over with fast as he could. Heaving his gun upwards he ran, taking back the lead.
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The day’s battle was exhausting, Heavy collapsed on his bed mindful that the Medic was expecting him soon. He glanced at the clock on his wall. Fifteen minutes. Ten for snoozing; the rest to walk down to the infirmary. He nodded to himself, just ten minutes. Closing those strained eyelids he fell into a deep sleep. Aching muscles finally being able to relax as the room was filled with mild snoring.
He woke; it was dark, heart sinking to see he was more than six hours late for his appointment. “This is bad...†Frowning he walked out to the kitchen. He missed out on dinner, grabbing and drinking from his vodka bottle as he gathered the makings of a sandvich.
Drinking as he made his sandvich, the Russian created the only meal he could make with his eyes closed. Cutting it diagonally and finishing it with an almost novel like olive, he flicked off the light and decided upon having a walk outside, eating as he did. Walking down the hallway towards an exit, a faint outcast of light emitted from underneath the infirmary doors. Surely the German wasn’t still working after such a long day. Hesitating at first, he knocked lightly on the large double door.
“... Vat is it?â€
Almost as soon as the hand knocked it retreated, sighing faintly he opened the door. There he was, the German hunched over his desk eyes like daggers towards the doorway. “I saw light was on so... thought I should just see if yo-â€
“You’re seeing me now? Heavy can you not tell the time? 1630, I made myself quite clear.â€
The Russian’s stomach dropped, he knew the man was right, and there was no sense in debating with the Medic that exhaustion was a valid reason. He shut the door behind himself, walking and presenting the other half of his sandvich as a peace offering. “I’m sorry, Doktor. I have no excuse.â€
Brow buried the German was reluctant in accepting. Is it something in the food he eats, that has made the symptoms arise? He does share a lot with me. “Nein. Danke, but I am still full from Demoman’s gumbo.†Nodding, the bigger man finished it off.
“Why are you still up, Doktor? You should be sleeping, it was long day.â€
Don’t talk of sleep. Taking off his glasses to rub at his eyes, he murmured, “To be blunt, I’m trying to find the cause of why a man makes themself believe that a man is a woman... and why a man considers themself to be said woman.†Speaking out loud gave the Medic another hypothesis. Something in the mind saying otherwise, maybe a parasite... The blank look on the man before him made the Medic subconsciously plan aside dates for a full body check up, for both of them.
After glancing at the rushed paperwork and diagrams from texts he couldn’t work out, the Russian decided to take a stab in the dark to why the man was so stressed. “If you are trying to understand why I kissed you, or why you have little crush; you are looking at this the wrong way, maybe. Strong willed man like you should just say how he feels, not try to find out why he feels that way.â€
The Medic would have been lying if he said that statement didn’t surprise him. It also dirtied him.
Heavy eyed the floor, the dull tiles seemingly more friendly than the German’s aura, “I... I welcome this crush. You are only man on team that I would, you know, trust for needs. Physical needs.â€
Instinctively the doctor’s body drew into itself upon the forward statement. “You are... disgusting, and need help. If I wasn’t the only one out here who actually wants to help you, you’d have been killed by now for such treason against nature.â€You definitely need more assistance than I do.
The Heavy was silent, his whole being almost intimidating to the doctor hadn’t it been for those hurt eyes. “I don’t need help, Doktor.â€
“Nein, you do and zis vould have been easier if you had come like I told you.†The German continued with his scribbling of notes and bookmarking his texts on Human Anatomy and Psychology.
“Doktor...â€
“I need to figure zis out, Heavy, before this gets more out of hand... I cannot vork if yo-“
â€DOKTOR.†The large man hit the desk with a clenched fist, startling the Medic but drawing his complete focus to him. “I am not ill, Doktor. Why can you not see that? I am not bleeding, I am not dying. Why do you think something is wrong?â€
“Heavy... but you. Trust me.†You’re being rather ungrateful.
“I think... Doktor is more uncomfortable with Doktor rather than me.†A pitying hand reached up for the Medic’s face but was tossed aside. That was the last draw; this had gone on long enough.
How dare you... How DARE you.
The German’s patience withered fast, throwing books, pens, anything at the man. “You... GET OUT, GET OUT NOW.†To his rage the man did not move, wincing his eyes as numerous things repelled off his thick frame. Don’t give me that look, don’t you dare feel sorry for me. YOU ARE THE PATHETIC ONE. “I DO NOT... do not...†he struggled to breathe searching his desk frantically for his inhaler. Where..? The doctor now coughing, the Russian looked concerned, rushing over after finding nothing remotely similar to a puffer on the desk and holding the man against him.
Medic clawed desperately at the other man’s shirt, gripping and near ripping the material off and yet pushing away as he did so. “Doktor... breathe... breathe with me. Focus on my chest, ups and downs. Copy this, Doktor.†Beads of sweat formed on his brow as he tried to tune into the respiratory motions of his once trusted friend. “Focus, Doktor.†A strong inhale. His body being moved in tow with the Russian, he could feel the beats of the man’s heart against his cheek. How it thudded in his ear or maybe it was his. A slow exhale. Medic struggled to match, breathing in the man’s vodka coated air instead. He felt hot, forcing his tie knot down and loosening his collar. Inhale... exhale... inhale... The rest of the room seemed so distant; he noticed he was still clutching the Russian even though his breathing was steadied. His breathing was fine.
“How long have...?†The larger man softly shushed him, running a thumb against the back of his Medic’s neck as he continued holding the man.
His tired body tensed in time with the Russian’s strokes. A small groan escaped from the back of his throat as the rubbing became firmer, forcing his head to rest on the Russian’s chest. He’d forgotten the feeling of heat from another person’s body. He found himself nuzzling into the man, pushing himself off the man whence he realised. “Please leave... You need to leave right now.â€
“Nyet.†The man pulled him in again, tight but not uncomfortable. There was nothing the doctor could do, the man was too strong.
With time I made myself resistant, with escapism I kept the thoughts at bay, but what have you done...? “Heavy. Don’t. Get off me, this is... †Why have you done this to me? I thought you were my ally, my friend.
That tender kiss to his forehead made his whole body tremble with fear and uncertainty. How those large hands held him made him numb from their gentleness. He felt nauseous, shutting his eyes tightly in hope it would help distance himself from his situation.
“Doktor... look at me.â€
Soft whimpers of protest followed the man’s request, the German desperately trying to pull away. Why are you doing this? Can’t you see this is not right? “Nein, go away...†His Russian friend filling him with a known fright years went unfelt now. Doing his best to make sure his tears did not leave his eyes.
“I won’t go away. You need to trust me, Dokor. I will be the one to help you now.â€
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I've been quite down, that's not my 'excuse' for not uploading any fics it's my reason for it. Had no motivation and life's been crappy atm, simple. I'll finish/fix up my update for my main and post it in a few days. Comments/critiques always welcome.
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