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No. 2451
Ze Doktor: What's that, Sandvich? Kill them all?
Sandvich: No, I said post the next damn chapter. Why aren't you listening to me?
Ze Doktor: Oh. Sorry. Here you go.
Sandvich: ...idiot.
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Medic drifted between sleep and waking, trying to hold on to the blissful feeling of whatever dream had blanketed his mind last night. Opening his eyes meant he would have to get up, and that would mean facing all the unpleasant memories lurking just out of sight. No, better to hold on to the half-real fragments of sensation that presented a much more palatable world, one full of the touch and smell and kiss of a lover.
Mmm, he could still feel that; the touch of skin against his own, soft and warm. The smell of musky sweat filling his every breath, cloying and arousing. But the feeling of lips on his mouth was gone, faded with the light of the morning, and he would not have it again until the next night. The disappointment crushed him.
He sighed. The memory of the kiss with Heavy would have to suffice until he dreamed again, beer-addled as it was. He let it wash over him, hot and delicious – and like clockwork, the events of the last week flooded back into his mind, bringing a wave of sadness and disappointment.
Medic cringed inwardly. He would have to get up now, if only to try to distract himself with menial tasks.
The conscious world flowed back, carrying the sensations of a new day. He felt warm, Medic thought, far warmer than he should be. It was not unpleasant, of course; simply unusual.
His breath suddenly caught in his throat. There was a body beside him. Arms around him. Legs tangled up with his. He could feel the chest moving up and down slowly under his own arm, thrown across a torso that was far too big to be anyone else but...
Medic opened his eyes. His heart started to race uncontrollably, making his hands shake. The first thing he saw was skin, and the thick, corded muscle of the man's neck. He pulled his head back, looking up and hardly believing that he was truly awake, and he saw Heavy's sleeping face.
His breath returned, but it was short and fast as he tried to take stock of what was going on through the rising panic. This was his room. The early morning light from the window was thin but certainly natural. The bed was still his own, the same one he woke up in every day, alone. Nothing had changed from the previous night except for the addition of Heavy, and - gott in himmel! They were both nearly naked. From the feel of it, he was only wearing his underwear, and Medic had his usual pajama pants. Their bodies were entwined, crushed together like they were desperate for the touch of another. He couldn't move at all without waking the man up.
He had imagined something like this only in the darkest depths of his fantasies. He curled his fingers, feeling the skin under his hand; it was as real as anything else he had ever known. Any number of terrifying scenarios presented themselves for consideration, not the least of which was that Heavy had been drugged with something, and in mere minutes he would wake and start asking some very awkward questions.
He might get violent. How far did his hatred of homosexuals go? He adored Heavy, but if he had to defend himself, he had only his fists – and he was somewhat outclassed in that area. The likely outcome was that he would die or be beaten senseless. Medic began to tremble in fear, his voice lost to him, which was just as well. Any shout would wake him up.
Nothing about this made any sense. Medic had no idea what to say to him – but the far more desperate part of him, the part that had urged him to kiss Heavy on the night of the party in spite of the consequences, offered a few interesting and undignified suggestions. He ignored them. He was more likely to beg for his life than for sex. But even while his heart thumped in his chest and he found it hard to breathe out of sheer panic, the sensation of the body next to his was overpowering, exhilarating. He had woken up in the arms of his love. Not even fear could change how much he wanted him.
Heavy's face was so close, and he looked so peaceful. His mouth was only a few inches away – did Medic dare...? He leaned closer, slowly and carefully, praying that he wouldn't wake up. Just one small kiss, and it really would be a small one this time. Just something else to keep him warm during the lonely nights; a memory, unclouded by alcohol, of soft, lovely lips. It was worth any amount of pain.
As their noses brushed together, Heavy's eyelids twitched. Medic froze, fresh terror taking over his mind. Muscles clenched around him; he shut his eyes, expecting the worst, shaking so badly he thought he might die from fear alone. One giant hand lazily moved up to his face, and he flinched at the touch of fingers on his cheek.
It was... gentle. Soothing. Medic slowly melted into the feeling of the fingertips brushing his skin, the thumb caressing his mouth. Such a simple thing, but it calmed him in a way that nothing else could, replacing the tension with loving warmth. His mind unravelled, his whole body relaxed. No one else could have such an effect on him. It seemed so natural to turn his head into the broad palm and let the hand cup his face. The fear dissolved as he kissed the skin that danced across his lips.
The hand traced a line down Medic's back and settled on his hip, fingers rubbing in little circles. He finally opened his eyes again to see Heavy looking at him with... what? Not anger, or hatred. Not even confusion. Pleasure, contentment, perhaps, while a small smile played across his features.
“Good morning, Doktor,†he said softly. Medic couldn't say a word in response, not with his thoughts being scattered by the feeling of the hand moving over his body, and their mouths being only a few inches apart. Heat spread from that point throughout his being and swiftly travelled to his face.
“Does Doktor want me to go?†Heavy asked, the rumble of his voice making Medic's stomach flop over. His grip tightened involuntarily – no! Please, please don't go, stay here and hold me, kiss me, love me... Medic drew closer, mouth open, eyes pleading.
“What does Doktor want?†he whispered, and Medic suddenly realized that it was not only his own heart that threatened to explode out of his chest. He could feel Heavy's pulse race as if he had been running a marathon. Their groins were pressed together, and – shock nearly shutting down his mind - he could also feel some very physical reactions happening to both of them.
Something had happened last night, and it had changed everything. Medic couldn't begin to understand what was going on and he didn't dare question it, not now. Somehow his one and only wish had been granted; Heavy was here, in his bed, in his arms, and swiftly being consumed by the same desire that he himself had felt for far too long.
Medic found his voice again. “You,†he croaked. “I vant you.†Heavy's hand suddenly gripped his ass painfully, making him gasp with aching, boiling need. “Oh Gott, please, I vant you!†he cried out.
Their lips finally collided, and it was everything Medic remembered and more. It was made hotter and sweeter by the feeling of hands on his body, stroking and touching in ways he had never been able to imagine. Heavy rolled onto his back and pulled him on top of him; Medic settled there, his legs splayed out to either side, grinding against him and both arms locked around his neck.
Clothes. Clothes got in the way. His pants were made of thin cotton, but it was still far, far too much. Had to get rid of them. Get rid of those boxers. Feel skin against skin. But – gah, he couldn't stop, not now! He'd waited and wanted for so long, and the taste of Heavy's tongue was pure heaven wrapped around his; he couldn't stop even if the base were burning down around them. He spared one hand to tug at his waistband, trying to pull it down without breaking contact with the other man's crotch.
Heavy levered himself up off the bed, and shucked off his underwear in one swift movement. Medic groaned, feeling the heat and rock-hardness of the other man's erection suddenly slapping against his balls. He grabbed the fabric of his pants, consumed with the urgent need to get them off as soon as possible. Heavy must have felt it too, and he took hold of the waistband and pulled it down so hard that the material ripped.
There were a few seconds of crazed fumbling and more tearing, then the remains of his pants were tossed onto the floor. Medic wrapped his arms around his neck again, nails digging into Heavy's shoulders in ecstasy. Fire was building in his belly, already threatening to overwhelm his whole being with pleasure. Not yet, not yet, he thought, I want him inside me first, want to feel his heat. Medic whimpered as the head of Heavy's cock bounced off his entrance.
Heavy pulled his lips away for a moment, taking some deep breaths and trying to speak as Medic pressed his mouth with kisses. “Need stuff,†he said hoarsely, “otherwise will hurt -â€
Thank god for Spy. The lube was in his desk drawer, but the desk was on the other side of the room. Medic swore briefly – one of them would have to leave the bed to get it. He lifted himself up, body screaming in protest at the withdrawal. “I have,†he panted. “Jus' – just vait, bitte.â€
He stumbled out of the bed, the cold air unpleasantly freezing the sweat on his skin. He had never moved so fast outside of the battlefield – a few quick steps to the desk, wrench the drawer open, grab the tiny tube, fly back to the arms of his Heavy. The big Russian sat up, pulled Medic onto his lap, and rewarded him with more hot kisses and touches.
They should have taken a while to stretch him out a bit. It had been some time for them both, and Heavy was very well-endowed. Medic was no virgin, however, and they were both past the point of common sense; a deep, desperate hunger had infected their minds and obliterated all reason. No more foreplay. He didn't care if it hurt, he didn't care if he bled.
The lube was applied and discarded on the floor. Medic sat astride him, his legs gripping Heavy's waist, arms thrown around his shoulders. Heavy lifted him, guided him onto his slick member, and slowly began to slide into him.
“Nnngg...†Medic shook with the pain, fingers clenching involuntarily. Oh god, he was big. Bigger than any other man he had ever been with. It would get better once he adjusted, but for now the agony swirled around his gut and dampened his pleasure. Every inch spread him open a little more, made him feel like he was being torn in two. When he reached the end, and Heavy was buried in him to the hilt, he felt hot tears dripping down his cheeks.
“Shh, shh, Doktor,†Heavy said soothingly. He didn't move, not yet. Medic couldn't stop trembling as he begged inwardly for the pain to subside. “Shh, I make it better.â€
Heavy kissed him, softly and gently. He slid one hand down to stroke Medic, igniting the fire all over again. The minutes stretched out as the pain faded, and Medic found himself relaxing again, enjoying the touches and sensations. He began to move against Heavy on his own, ignoring the last lingering ache.
The rhythm was slow out of necessity. Heavy didn't want to hurt him more than he already had. Medic knew he could take it, though – when Heavy moved in just the right way, and hit just the right spot, he could hardly think around the rush of pleasure and started to beg incoherently in German.
Heavy groaned and threw a hand out to brace himself on the bed, leaning back to get as much of his length in as possible. He kept one arm around Medic's waist, holding him in place as he snapped his hips upwards again. Medic moaned and pleaded with every thrust, one hand on Heavy's chest and the other jerking himself off. The fire in his body had turned into an inferno, a coursing river of heat that battered his mind to dust. This was everything, everything, he had wanted; nothing in his imagination could have prepared him for it, not even if he had had years to dream.
The orgasm hit him like a truck. Medic arched his back and cried out with the force of it. “Oh Gott, Heavy, ich liebe dich! Ich liebe di-aaaaaAAAAAAAAHHHH!†he screamed, waves of pleasure and desire crashing through him and leaving trails of fireworks across his vision. He collapsed against Heavy as the other man came, riding the end of his climax with the hot, wet feeling of semen spurting into his ass.
They both descended into an endorphin-filled post-sex haze. Heavy pushed himself up, sat on the bed with his arms rather shakily wrapped around Medic. He didn't pull out – he couldn't, not until Medic moved, and he had no inclination to move just yet. He was happy to stay just as he was, his forehead resting on Heavy's shoulder and his hands feeling the beat of their hearts slowing down.
That had been too quick, he thought. He normally liked to take his time with sex, and make sure his partner was properly fulfilled. Medic didn't think he had ever wanted it so badly that he had literally lost his mind, but this was a culmination of weeks, months even, of wanting and being denied. It didn't come as that much of a surprise.
The thought that did surprise him was that Heavy had been at least as desperate as him. Medic couldn't help wondering what he was thinking, right now. He slid a hand around his neck, and pulled himself up to face the bigger man.
Heavy immediately kissed him again, and it was still just as sweet as the first time. Medic returned the sentiment, stroked his cheek, felt the rough scrape of stubble against his lips. It was gentle, thankful affection from a man grateful to finally have something he had needed more than life itself.
“I cannot believe you are real,†Medic murmured. “Zis feels too vunderful to be real.â€
Heavy chuckled, a deep rumble in the back of his throat. “I am real, Doktor. Is morning, see? This is not dream.†His hand resumed making little circles on his back, slow and reassuring.
“Vhy are you here?†Medic asked, knowing that he still feared the answer. “I zhought you hated me.†His voice cracked as he spoke the words. He stared at the other man, searching his face with worry.
Heavy held him closer. “I never hate you, Doktor. Is not possible I hate you,†he said, trailing kisses across Medic's lips. “Believe this, yes? I am here because I want to be with you. Have always wanted, but thought you and Spy...â€
“You... vhat?†Medic said weakly. “Ve are friends, Heavy – alvays, only friends!â€
“Da, I am knowing this now. Spy come to me and tell me last night. He say, 'Doktor needs you, go to him straight away.'†Heavy paused, deep in thought for a moment. “He... explain many things, but not why he hit you.â€
“It vas my fault – I accused him of being a bad friend. He vas right to be angry viz me.†Medic brushed his fingers across Heavy's mouth. “Please, I have already forgiven him. He has been a better friend zhan I deserve, it seems.â€
It was unbelievable, almost too much to take in all at once. Medic struggled to understand exactly what had happened – Spy had found out about Heavy from somewhere, and taken the insane risk of approaching him directly for his friend's sake. Whatever the chain of events, the end result was that he was so deliriously happy he could barely think straight.
His love seemed to be struggling with something. He looked at Medic imploringly, his cheeks starting to go red. “Doktor, I must ask...†he started.
“Ja?â€
“You really do want me?â€
Medic couldn't help laughing. “Ja, I do, my big Russian bear! I vant you so much,†he said, hugging Heavy and planting kisses all over his face. “Feels like I have vanted for such a long time.â€
He held him close, and buried his face in Medic's neck. Medic could feel the smile against his skin, and it gave him a rush of emotion almost as powerful as the orgasm. They wanted each other, they were together, and they were happy. The world could not be any more perfect.
The feeling brought something more – the hunger returned, more powerful than ever. Medic touched his lips to Heavy's chest, inhaling deeply and enjoying the smell of sweat and sex. His fingers moved to one of his broad nipples without any prompting, stroking it and playing with it unconsciously.
“I have waited too long, Doktor,†Heavy said softly. His hand drifted down to Medic's ass again. “Have waited to touch, and to kiss.†He squeezed, and Medic felt a thin thread of heat uncoiling in his gut. “To make love,†he whispered.
His aching voice set Medic's whole body aflame all over again. He gasped, feeling himself getting hard and feeling Heavy getting hard inside him; he thought he had felt pleasure before, but it could not compare to this. He didn't even sound like himself any more. “Oh please, please make love to me, Heavy,†he panted. “Du bist die einzigen liebhaber ich will... Anyzing you vant, I vill give, ANYZING...â€
The fire burned like a furnace this time, blazing so hot that he felt like he could die. Heavy flipped him over, pressed him into the mattress, while Medic grabbed at the headboard to steady himself. The rhythm was fast and hard from the start, the bed shaking and rattling with the force of each thrust. They both moaned, cried out each other's name, writhed in pure, animalistic desire; Medic finally gave up trying to touch or kiss and planted both hands on the bars, pushing down as hard as he could. He let his legs flail wildly until Heavy grabbed his thighs, shoved them forward and slammed into him. The Russian roared like a bull, and Medic started to scream through his second climax as he pounded the most sensitive part of his ass.
In the aftermath, they lay together, exhausted and damp. Heavy's breath was hot and quick against his neck. Medic couldn't feel anything below his waist bar gentle, lazy waves of warmth and pleasure, and pressure where Heavy's leg rested on him. He was content to drift, as he had when he was half-awake, enjoying the sensations that lingered in his body.
“Doktor,†Heavy asked softly, when his breathing was back under control, “What is meaning thing you shout, 'ik lee-bah dik'? I think you say last night too, when you are asleep.â€
“Ich liebe dich,†Medic repeated, and smiled to himself. “It means 'I love you.'â€
Heavy pulled him into a bear hug, and kissed the side of his head. “Я люблю тебÑ,†he whispered. Medic frowned, and opened his mouth to ask what that meant – then he put two and two together, and his heart began to race all over again.
“Really?†he asked, turning to look at Heavy.
“Yes, Doktor, really,†he replied. “More than Sasha, even. More than anything.â€
Medic laughed again, joy bubbling uncontrollably out of him. He had never, in all his life, felt so happy; the despair that had poisoned his every waking hour seemed unreal now. He reached for Heavy's face, pulled his head down, and lost himself in his lover's lips.
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