Now guys this is NOT the next installment, this is a side story of the main. Hopefully you've picked up enough of my hinting to understand what the deal is, if not well now that's just a shame. Enjoy? Wants of a Bushman You’re an attractive man, I could tell even with your mask on. Lookin’ all fancy in that blue suit, it fitted you well. You’re so quiet but it’s nice, you’re not like the others. You knew somethin’ was up when I pestered you more than the rest of the team. How could you not when you’re always in that room of yours. It really surprised me when you came to my nest first few times, though you didn’t talk much even then. You liked playin’ cards so I thanked God I didn’t know the rules to poker, it made you speak more finally. You stuck around even through the night, sharin’ laughs and drinks. How we’d start talkin’ about our homelands and the fort, you never talked about family or friends but I figured that’s normal seein’ you’re a Spy. I’m sure the booze had somethin’ to do with it but God your lips were welcomed. Didn’t think you were so strong either, not used to bein’ the one fightin’ back in this kind of situation. But I think you liked bein’ pinned against the wall not havin’ to be the one to pull the ropes. Who knew that I could have ever taken a fancy to another man, especially one so different to me? I’d say it’s because of how long we’d been out here but I’d be lyin’. Seein’ you walk around in all those layers, I’d fuckin’ rip that suit off when night came. I want to strip you down to nothin’, see you shuffle backwards on my bed as I climb over you. Fuck how I want to hold and stroke your body. How I want to grope and kiss every bit of you because you're mine. I want your body stretched out, naked on the bed, so I could vigorously kiss, bite and grope every part of your flesh. It’s mine and I want to touch it so badly. I’d revel in the fact that I can do whatever I want with it. To just spend the time explorin’ it, appreciatin’ it, feelin’ it... just lookin’ at it. Lookin’ at you, naked in front of me and man, you'd be lookin’ at me with that sexy confident face. But I can tell you’re slightly shy, how you’re slightly self conscious. There’s no need to be darlin’ oh ’cause I know you trust me enough... and surely you know I love your body. Those scars and burns across your body turn me on. I don’t know why; you must have thought I was a bloody weirdo. Yet still you’d completely trust me and I want to be with you. I’d hold you naked against me as I run my hands up and down your bare back, feelin’ you twitch as my hand moves over different places, different marks, and the different textures. Hearin’ you breathe next to my ear... you love it when I'm touchin’ your body forcefully, oh you grip me so tight darlin’, around my neck as you bury your face into me. I want to be controllin’ your naked body, rollin’ you over, holdin’ you down, and bein’ forceful ... ‘cause I just have to kiss you where I want to kiss you, I just gotta touch you how I want to touch you. I’d squeeze your arse, grind into it, rub it, all ‘cause it's mine and I want to feel it in every way possible. You even let me inside your body. God darlin’ you’re so warm. I want to grab your waist while you ride me; touch you in ways that make you moan. Run my palms up and down your legs, pressin’ into your skin. I want to hear those moans right next to my ear; I want to wrap my arms around you as you lie on top of me. Seein’ you smile with your nose right up against mine. All I can see are your dark irises, and your smirk out the bottom of my eye but I can feel your hands on my back, your body against mine. How your legs shift and bend as they run up and down me and I want it all now. I want to run my hand along your cheek and feel you breath into my palm before I take it away, pleasurin’ you in every way you desire, until I slowly get rougher and rougher, until I take everythin’ from you. I want to do things to surprise you, dominate you, roll you over press you down. Your calves over my shoulders, your leg hairs ticklin’ my back, makin’ me smirk as you groan under my weight. Spillin’ myself into you, makin’ you reach bliss with me. Oh how you exhaust me darlin’, you make me exhaust yourself, fallin’ asleep as you cling up real close. Wakin’ up and havin’ you still here, you’d complain about havin’ a shower in my van but still you’d walk over to it, that naked body hidin’ nothin’. You’d even trust me with you face, pullin’ that dirty mask off so I could see the way your hair grips to your face. Those dark, little curls at the ends. I’d like bein’ in the shower with you even though we know it’s way too small. That certain way you smile as you close your eyes and look up into the water, havin’ all your hair pushed back off your face and drippin’. Those dark eyelids, and your awkward smile as the water squirts you, you know I’d wrap my arms around you darlin’, kissin’ at those wet lips of yours. You’d make me feel like a man again, I know you would darlin’, ‘cause you’d make me feel like this is right. You’d make me feel like this is not just makin’ me happy. --- I got so mad after that call, I don’t know why. I thought it would do me some good to come out to my parents. You gave me such confidence, feelin’ like I could take on the world. She doesn’t talk to me anymore; dad always says I’m the one who broke her heart. I only took this job to make ends meet darlin’, I did it for them as well. I didn’t mean to hurt you, you know I want to make it better, and you know I want to say I’m sorry but I can’t ‘cause it’s not right. I didn’t mean to hit you, please don’t go away darlin’. I know we’re both angry, but you just don’t understand, it’s not about you and I can’t be thinkin’ of me. Don’t hide yourself away again darlin’, no don’t yell at me like that. Just fuck off darlin’ I can’t stand to feel this way. You gotta stay away from me; I can’t bear to want you. I came here to fight a war, I shouldn’t be findin’ love. Not with someone like you... not when I’m someone like me. You’ll understand darlin’ time will pass. You just gotta wait, I have too much to do, I have a team to run. All wars end, by then I’ll make it up to you, I’ll make this war between us end too. I promise darlin’, just wait, I promise. ----------------------------------------- I repeat, this is a side story, not a current update of the main fic. Comments/critiques always welcomed.