132 I really like your ideas and perspective. Do you have any idea where that TeratoMarty fic is, or what it's called? 133 I was oddly proud that I was able to evoke such intense feelings of disgust. At least it's something, you know? 134 "The author failed to make the character’s motive clear" I will work on this. I just didn't want to make it too obvious. 141 Yeah, those are really valid ideas and would make sense. Thank ya kindly. 143 I don't think you're creepy. At least, not any creepier than I am. "Fiction is fiction, nothing more, regardless of your intentions." Agreed 100%. 144 "Saying "great, I'm glad it made you feel grossed out and violated!" comes off as a way to avoid really reading criticism." I explained this above. I will not lie about or apologize for how I feel. If that's wrong or immoral, then so be it. Also, avoiding really reading crit? Are you serious? I've spent the better part of this thread gratefully accepting criticism and absorbing those points, opinions, views and ideas. Please don't accuse me of avoiding criticism when I have worked so hard to be anything but evasive. I freely admit that I didn't do so well on this front in this beginning, but I apologized there too. I believe I even posted something about my "butthurt". Final Notes: 145 146 There are some decisions that I have made. 1) I'm going to completely rewrite this. The points that have been brought up have made me curious as to what this could be. 2) I am going to continue this version. For every passionate "I don't like this", "This doesn't belong here", or comparing this fic to actual feces, I have gotten at least two quiet emails or posts from people who are asking me to continue. One individual even drew an absolutely breath-taking picture, something that completely and totally conveyed what I was trying to write. For every person who doesn't get it, someone does. I thought maybe I was insane, that it really was just pointless trash, but if so many are picking up on what I was trying to do, then how can one say that this is truly a failure? So I'm going to continue this odd, disgusting, dark, immoral, flawed and overtly pornographic story. I say those things because I feel that they apply to this fic, not because I'm being a sarcastic twat. Actually, let me address that too. Multiple times it has been pointed out that I am condescending, smug, or otherwise a douche. While I don't deny that I'm a douche, when I write those things I write them with total honesty. I'm not trying to be an asshole or condescending. I've been told that I write the exact same way I speak, verbatim. I have one last conflict. While I am going to continue this version, where should I put it? Part of me says to put it on pastebin or somewhere else, as has been suggested. Honestly, I want to keep it here. I don't understand how, on a board full of other instances of rape/gang-rape, necrophilia, torture, and even sewing guys to each other mouth-to-asshole, this gets so much anger. Is it because there's a vagina involved? Yes, it's violent, but there are many fics here already containing just as much of that. Yes, it's pornographic, but all of these fics are... I just want to know why this in particular has received so much passion.